A Suicide Note

scared of falling ghosts are calling the pavements getting close wind rushing through my hair as if being played by ghosts. i hit the ground giving a bone cracking sound and people start to gather they draw my body's outline on the ground and put me on a platter they take me to the hospital i only have seconds left to go. they give me drugs that will surely put on a show. I'm getting dizzy and i cant keep open my eyes but the only thing keeping me awake is my loves beautiful eyes oh the lies. the lies she said put on like bread they must of rubbed off on me. for i played the game too. but she didn't see it from my perspective for she couldn't tell my truths from lies so now she left me with an uncertain look on my face. shes put me back down again my heart is gone and misplaced i wish she would come back to me i wish she would try again. but now shes scared and i don't know where to begin. i wake in a hospital room stepped to the bed. i see needles and IVS in my arms blood stained sheets what ever happened I'm sure glad i wasn't awake for it until i noticed they went doing operation on my body no they were doing operation on my brain insane? IN-VAIN! I scream and shout and scramble my arms and legs two big men in suits walk in hold me down while a nurse gives me another shot. I fall asleep fast and dream of her again. her hazel eyes, her short cut hair my destiny ceased and turned to my demise oh those hazel eyes. leaving back a letter stating (every thing in parentheses isn't in the note): dear mom and dad please don't be sad don't get mad it was never your fault (alright maybe it was) it was mix of things we all know who your going to point fingers at its wasn't because Jeanette i promise you our love had been wrecked and now i don't know what to do. i took these pills to answer your prayers no more pain Mommy and look dad no more annoying kid running around. well, i hope you enjoy your life and remember life isn't as meaningless as i think it is.