A Spiral

i want to tear my body into ribbons and watch myself cascade down onto the floor i cannot keep reforming myself just to fall apart again efforts to maintain a stasis in composure are wasted on this anxiety-ridden mind my legs are still writhing in pain my chest hasn’t ceased its tightening i don’t understand it i can’t keep this up i don’t know if i’m cut out for anything it’s all so much right now too much