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A Small Stain Of Blood

an early morning rise,
up the stairs
walk into the bathroom 
in the sink
a small stain of blood.

less than a measure of yesterday 
pulling a baby out of the womb into my arms.
on the sheets
a small stain of blood.

midwives  wrap
my first born
snug and warm.

when her mother
finally gets her initial fill
she hands me this precious
new life.

i hold her knowing
there is nothing,
nothing!,
nothing...
nothing.,
nothing-
better then this moment!,

sweet scented perfection!,
lulls me into a peaceful bliss.

as she grows,
i spend my best times with her 
and later her sister too.

my daughters own me 

lock,

stock

and

barrel.

Ali?

 i still see your
baby green eyes
reaching out to me.

i still smell your
childhood scent.

i can still taste
your hopes and dreams.

i can still touch
your youth as if it were now,
hear your tiny voice

 "daddy i love you but you're my best friend too".

there is nothing,
nothing!,
nothing...
nothing.,
nothing-
better then this moment!,

you're now twenty two.
in the sink?
a small stain of blood.

in your bedroom 
cocaine,

syringes,

...everywhere.

i clean 
carefully picking them up.

i know you know you're playing
russian roulette with your life.

the drug convinced you 
your life isn't worth living.
that's what drugs do.

they're that snake in the garden of eden
and you know eve ate that apple
and you know she sacrificed everything
for a fruit that would never taste that good again.

evil always presents itself as the only choice
while good seems too tough an alternative
but the truth is, the harder you have to work for it 
the better it feels and it holds its feel with nothing to chase.

you can't hear me
the monster deeply 
imbedded in you.

but Ali i love you
and Ali my heart weeps
and on my chest sits
a small stain of blood!



June 3 2015
Armand



Copyright © | Year Posted 2015




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Date: 10/30/2015 7:21:00 AM
This is lovely and great! I miss your work my dear poet. Refreshing... so refreshing!!
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Date: 10/8/2015 9:51:00 PM
This is such a strong piece...I was overwhelmed by it...and I hope everything is going to be okay with your daughter...we can not dictate the choices that our children make, but in spite of the choices they choose, a parent will love and continue to love their child. May you find the strength to continue on and the knowledge that you as a parent, are doing, or have done everything you can to help her.
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Date: 7/3/2015 3:20:00 AM
MAurice, you got me teary eyed here.. You write with so much ardor and passion. I hope you are doing alright. I pray that God refills your strength and wisdom always.. ~OLive ELoisa
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Date: 7/2/2015 11:01:00 AM
Great poem with a lovely message. Thanks for the Grade 7 share.
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Date: 6/13/2015 5:57:00 PM
Dropping by to say hello. You have been missed my friend.
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Date: 6/11/2015 1:12:00 AM
Blessings dear Armand, for you and your daughter. A moving piece that weeps. hugs and love, Connie
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Date: 6/9/2015 6:46:00 PM
My heart goes out to you, Maurice; just keep pouring out the pain through poetry and it will help to provide the strength to continue the fight. You are missed at the Soup, but understandably so. Know that you have fellow poets pulling for you and your daughter.
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Date: 6/6/2015 11:51:00 AM
Armand, I have read through these words a few times and my heart feels your sorrow. I pray for your daughter's recovery, and I hope all the love you are pouring out to her helps her fight. Your loving voice is louder than the monster telling her she's not worth the fight. You're in my thoughts and prayers...hugs, Rhonda
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Date: 6/4/2015 11:07:00 PM
Armand.. Deeply moving write and a perfect selection as Poem Of The Day!
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Date: 6/4/2015 4:14:00 PM
Very powerful, well done !!
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Date: 6/4/2015 3:37:00 PM
Such a deeply emotional write. Heart wrenching! My heart aches for your pain and I pray she will be delivered from this horrible addiction. Congrats on Poem of the Day. Love,Kim
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Date: 6/4/2015 3:27:00 PM
This is so powerful and heartbreaking at the same time. Your daughter will be in my prayers, Armand. May she the love that God has for her, and I know you are helping her with your love, too.
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Date: 6/4/2015 12:55:00 PM
Armand, congratulations on having this beautiful poem selected as Poem Of The Day, enjoy the honour . .
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Date: 6/4/2015 12:37:00 PM
Hey Maurice, BIG congratulations on your wonderful poem being chosen for POTD!! So beautifully written and expressed. Be Blessed, Neva
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Date: 6/4/2015 8:49:00 AM
Our children our the reason for breathing, loving, caring, and living. When we see them hurt we hurt but they don't seem to understand that until they have their own. Wonderful written poem, Maurice and congratulations on Poem of the Day. Hugs dear friend
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Date: 6/4/2015 8:24:00 AM
Armand! This is extremely impactful. This is so real that I can put myself deep in the emotion. That is a painful place that I hope never to experience in real life. If this is part of your story my heart aches for you and her.
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Date: 6/4/2015 7:54:00 AM
- Your writing gives me tears, Armand ...... so sad, so sad - Congratulations on your p.o.t.d. - hugs & <3 // Anne-Lise :)
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Date: 6/4/2015 7:40:00 AM
Dear friend..This poem misted my eyes cuz I have a two and ten month yr old ,and I know the joy a newborn brings but I know that one day She will grow up wings and fly out of my cocoon to places I might not be..That scares me ,yet there is always the return,and if your daughter returned to you that means She trusts you and needs you..That is love and love is good news even in bad situations.I ll keep on praying and you keep doing what you re doing..Its a hard task..but together you can make it..You will...Favouring this poem.
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Date: 6/4/2015 7:10:00 AM
Oh sweetie, my prayers to you and your family. Love breaks the hold of the devil. lots of love my friend.
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Date: 6/4/2015 2:05:00 AM
Congrats on poem of the day Armand - you are in my thoughts my friend:-) Hugs jan xx
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Date: 6/4/2015 1:54:00 AM
Armand, I am lost for words. Nothing that we say can change things, but your daughter together with your love for her can. The bond that exists between you two is the key to a solution that is not easy. You are in my prayers, my friend. // paul
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Date: 6/4/2015 1:27:00 AM
Armand, this is sad beyond belief. I continue praying for you and your fight to save your precious daughter. This poem , though it is tragic, also makes me feel hope, knowing that you are still writing and you are out there. All my best to you, my dear friend. faved.
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Date: 6/3/2015 5:52:00 PM
Armand, I will keep you and your daughter in my thoughts.
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Date: 6/3/2015 12:47:00 PM
Armand, thank you for showing up today to give us an opportunity in our own small way to share in your struggle for your daughter's life. We are with you in prayers. Love, Kim.
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Date: 6/3/2015 11:03:00 AM
Armand my heart is breaking for you - I know you have done everything in your power to help your daughter fight her addiction - I hope and pray that she can pull through - always here for you:-) Love and hugs Jan xx
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