A Poem For My Kids

I don't know why I do All the things it is been said I do to all of you The pain and the suffering he and I put you through I constantly feel all that to I want so badly to make it all go away And there's no amount of words that can say How sorry I am for you all having to deal with all this every single day I'm to am feeling torn, broken, and confused Some people like him leave me to be here left feeling used They do things to try to make me feel guilty then tell me I'm this or that when I know I'm not I do try to help out with all I got But when I don't have what they want when it's needed Things between he and I tend to get ugly and very heated Then you all get put right there in it all Because of how he feels it's me he will not let you call They are doing things in their mind with the best of intentions They believe I'm the enemy so to the bad person getting to you he takes his prevention and protection They think they are being the one who is ten feet tall But I'm not the one who is going to fall They may soon find themselves looking up from down on their knees Realizing the truth when it has been said to everyone one cannot please So no matter what he may do or say I hope you really understand why I couldn't stay But just cause I had to leave and you wanted to be with him doesn't mean I don't miss each of you in every way And I love you all so much more and more with each and every passing day These feelings are ones that will never ever stray Love always and forever Mom