A Million More Chances

A million more chances Some people they get to live forever; Some people do not have the same luck. I want to go on until the other end of the never, But fate has decided my time is up. If only I had a million more chances. A million more attempts to live life to the full. Maybe I could find the antidote; If only I could read every single book. If only I could; if only. Maybe I would not have to feel so lonely, Because nobody understands the pain that is my life! I am not and never will be ready to walk into the light. My hope is in Pandora’s box; I wish I could just pick that lock, But I cannot, for the fear is too strong. I guess this is my lot. Exhausted from the thought of it all; No key to be found to walk through a sliding door. In a life so short, why was it all such a chore? A battle for life; a love I never saw. I only glimpsed at what could have been, But now that desire has gone; I have lost everything. I could never try, without somebody at my side. I cry all the time, because all I want is a life And a love life too; is that too much to ask? Please do not take this all from me. Please do not take it all back. As the depression kicks in, I sink into the abyss. The loneliness of me, the pity, the lost wishes; Let me live. If this is what must be, then why must it be me? I want to live, I want to live; I want to be set free. (C)2017 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.