A Lesson Learned

I need happy cheerful thoughts Somehow I got deeply caught In a spiral of darkness Swirling into deep sharpness Sinking me lower until My heart body and souls filled With so much pain I start to drown Too far gone to turn around Stuck in this vortex of pain Slowly driving me insane Circling in my own crap I'm about to finally snap Weighed down by my past mistakes Crushing me until I break Tightly tied down, no escape Every minute I am draped With the cost of never knowing How my feelings should be showing Not buried down in a prison I was clouded by the vision If I didn't get advice From others, it would be nice Not to bother anyone With problems, I bit my tongue Working it out on my own But it made my life get blown Into pieces of disaster My sanity going faster Than I could reel it in Lessons learned too late again