A Grief - Miscarriage

For those of us who take the dart to the heart with a smile There's no one who gets to see our melting points They shut their eyes just like we veil our cries And everyone pretends nothing's out of order. In all this pretence of normalisation Somewhere inside us the pieces keep shattering down While people keep coming around Giving a little extra pain to shove down. Pointless arguments same merciless tones There's not an inch of empathy not even a little humanity. How would have I known Some grieves are for you to bear alone Maybe it's not even a legit grief when you lose someome that only you have known. With piercing agony inside our beings we flash smiles like it's a good holiday while all we go through is another agonizing day Shattered souls and aching bodies Broken hearts with unwritten stories No proper theme, not title to give; what have I just been through? how could this be so much, and yet be so 'nothing'? How could an event, an interval of life, longer than 10 weeks be recorded shorter than a heartbeat? How can something be forgotten before its even over? A loss remains a loss whether acknowledged or not. The pain remains intact despite all the varnish. And a place in the heart forever remains Occupied by the same inhabitant. And time and again the specks of grief shine through the eyes again. I am grateful you dropped by, even if it was just for a moment... I don't even know if you're counted; but in my heart, you're permanent.