A Dilemma Part I

A DILEMMA (Part I) Every night before closing my eyes, My heart, I comfort with a million lies Across the bridges ,like the oceans seven Across this ‘hellish’ life, lies heaven Everyday I chose not to lose hope Before everything falls apart, THEY will be able to cope But, My expectations are stabbed brutally What lies in my hands? It’s always the fate ultimately Words like love have no place I don’t know in whom to find solace Crashing things and slamming the doors Both of them, no guilt and no remorse They fail to understand how much it hurts me My bruised heart, I hope someday they will see Some past experiences they don’t wish to forget And I tell them to move on This solution, they reject! Those ruthless people force me to choose It feels like standing in two boats, One feet up and myself, I l lose The situation, these emotions, leave me in confusion It feels as if my HAPPINESS is some delusion To choose between my mom and dad Every time I try, as if my heart is stabbed To become partially orphaned is what the court asked, They say ‘give a SIMPLE answer’ Is it really this simple task? Do misunderstandings always lead to separation? Or behind the curtains, god offers some solutions? But who has the patience, to pull the curtains down? No one is ready to bury their egos under the ground To wake up every morning just to hear them scream Every second is a night mare, I miss those childhood fairy dreams Tomorrow is the day of judgement None of them, ready for a settlement I m still wondering whom to choose Come what may, one of them, I will lose I hope till morning I find some way I hope some miracle takes place on this judgement day I hope, these ‘hopes’ are not shattered like always Mom and dad, With BOTH of you I wish to stay! (guys, this poem is not at all related to my real life.....random poem it is)