HIND SIGHT 20 20!

Love disappeared and left me longing a broken home topped off with losing it To be wrong for trying to conclude the madness to be able to concede but unable to retreat Made me Frankenstein a monster whose reflection made me want to vomit A child produced from the broken home just for one side to perceive as if he was never conceived How can I grow if I cant water my own seed Irresponsibility and border line addictions immaturity and wandering without knowing missions Became a man that instead of receiving love I was begging for forgiveness Watching leave what was held as a sacred bond made the inside of me scream and my head let off alarms No charming here just trauma and pain from over there I would've shared but it was taken as a joke Face got used to red and ears got used to smoke It got better for a moment even though it was hate used to replace the love stolen A solid figure but after the heat it became molten I thought it was a home being created not your jail you needed to escape from I never thought it could be this bad from dating but its enough to make you turn numb Acceptance and powerlessness weighed heavily going through a lonely hell when will things turn heavenly If i accept it It wont better me but if I fight it i still lose control gradually My only fear was producing a void permanently nothing to fill the hole that made me look problematic mentally its bickering and snickering behind the end of love but also at the beginning of hate I was giving up on love it was beginning to look fake It was a stalemate when it was supposed to be checkers It was checks being yelled instead of us checking Still unavoidable to wish for or to long for something missing Still so unavoidable