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To run so carelessly, And act without thought, Am I truly a child? I’ve tried so hard, Harder than my mind And my bones can take. I can feel my heart, My soul, break apart. I want to save everyone, But how could I possibly? I want to save the world, But it’s impossible. I keep lying to myself, Thinking that Destroying myself Will save others. A letter sent to you, “If I wanted to die, Would you actually Try to save me?” I’ve always chosen Quantity over quality, And people are the same. Attracting all the wrong, While avoiding the right. I am the lonely one here, I am the best player, At my own game. This is how it is, This is how I have played, Karma is coming back To haunt me to death. Seeing those I love And those I thought That I unconditionally loved Turn their backs, It hurts more than A thousand needles prodding At my heart. I can’t stand to see You suffering, So take my eyes, My lungs, My heart, Anything you please, Anything that will Make you happy.