I Really Lived

12:09 AM I remember in the beginning When it was new. I would give you some of me For some of you. There was too much chaos Not enough splendor. I believed you were real, You’re a pretender. Did you think I would not notice? The lies you gave me to drink? I tasted them in your kiss, More than you would think. I have your betrayal pumping In my vein. My mind wraps around it, Welcomes the pain. Your kiss the bitter flavor Of a loved that died. Your double life, the lies, Cover what you hide. The irony of love, And it's a certain fate. There was once so much love, Now, I only hate. The first time ever, You filled my soul. All that remains is a Big black hole. For ten years I rose, Above from below. It was your love that Brought the warm glow. Betrayal, deceit and a Million little lies. I can't believe it never Showed in your eyes. I'm fried, I have nothing Left to give. Time spent with you, The only time I really lived. Turbo1904