3mm basilar tip aneurysm

Laying very still actually afraid to move my head unbearable headaches after two strokes severe anxiety syncope fainting spells my husband rushes me back and forth to the hospital I felt horrified anytime you have a traumatic brain injury a lot comes into play first it was waking up from the coma blurred visions big words from nasal radiology deplopia vertigo early onset of dementia learning to walk talk again physical therapy hope laughter crying pain and suffering now this 3mm basilar tip aneurysm right where in front of my brain stem which meets blood vessels to my spine now what lay still treat the pain prepared for an angiography just when I thought having two strokes after traumatic brain injury couldn't be any worse well now it is afraid to breathe cardiovascular attacks Afib irregular heart beats afraid to panic ptsd envisioning myself deceased grieving my health as I once knew it before traumatic events before traumatic brain injury before traumatic headaches never knowing when this will erupt will it be riding to the doctors pharmacy grocery store church or just while having tea watching King of Queens reruns will I be laughing crying or taking a bath when it burst ticking time bomb an yet I am reminded everyday of all the wondrous things God has created life is funny that way I suppose I'm still wondering life death do I get to choose rather I come back as a cardinal an eagle or a butterfly something with wings to soaring with the angels watching over God's earth for now laying still treating pain