2009 Poetry
I found my poetry book from 2009, depression had me at my worst
Reading through my rhymes what was I going through?
I was self-harming at the time, so there's dried blood splattered over the words
I feel ashamed of some of the things I was showing you
I was writing about suicide in every other line
It seems like I was in a whole other mind
Kirstie had just broke my heart I used a lot of ink on her
Which now seems wasted, because I no longer think about her
I was saying goodbye to everyone I cared about
Talking about death, but it wasn't something I was scared about
Cursing my family out for not being around
The tears I cried were enough for me to drown
This pad was filled about a month before I took an overdose of tablets
Thinking suicide was the only way to stop my sadness
The Weight of the world, was just too much for me to hold
I'm 25 now going over the poetry I wrote at 17 years old
I survived the suicide attempt, I guess I have a reason to be here
I overcame the worst, so I can no longer feel fear
When I started to read from one of my 2009 poetry books
I'm glad I survived my storms and didn't give up
Copyright © Alex Duffy | Year Posted 2017
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