Alex Duffy Poet Free verse

2009 Poetry

I found my poetry book from 2009, depression had me at my worst
Reading through my rhymes what was I going through?
I was self-harming at the time, so there's dried blood splattered over the words
I feel ashamed of some of the things I was showing you

I was writing about suicide in every other line
It seems like I was in a whole other mind
Kirstie had just broke my heart I used a lot of ink on her
Which now seems wasted, because I no longer think about her 

I was saying goodbye to everyone I cared about
Talking about death, but it wasn't something I was scared about
Cursing my family out for not being around
The tears I cried were enough for me to drown

This pad was filled about a month before I took an overdose of tablets
Thinking suicide was the only way to stop my sadness
The Weight of the world, was just too much for me to hold
I'm 25 now going over the poetry I wrote at 17 years old 

I survived the suicide attempt, I guess I have a reason to be here
I overcame the worst, so I can no longer feel fear 
When I started to read from one of my 2009 poetry books
I'm glad I survived my storms and didn't give up

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FJ Thomas December 21, 2017 at 11:35 AM This isn't a read you get every day. Sad, unique, and uplifting. A great share Alex. Alex Duffy December 22, 2017 at 7:40 PM Thank you so much, just finding an old poetry book helped me to write it, glad you enjoyed it :)

Maureen McGreavy Pigeon Tart December 21, 2017 at 10:56 AM I'm glad too :) Big hugs from accross the pond and Happy Solstice to you! Take care Alex, write on my friend <3 Alex Duffy December 22, 2017 at 7:39 PM Thank you :) big hugs to you too, hope you have a good Christmas, take care too. And I will continue to write :)