In God We Trust

I was sent from the spirit world to do things that were needed in the time allotted me. The challenges would be great and one of them would be to adjust as a spirit to a physical body that would be very small. My spirit that was of a full-size adult would be placed in a prepared body of flesh and bone. A small one but that would be for a short time because the body would grow to a full adult. I would be given special gifts when I was born on earth and those gifts have added help within the challenges placed before me. I would need to find my Father in Heaven while on earth because all that was previously known, a veil would be placed there and I did not have access to that information. I would come to know that my body was capable of feeling joy and happiness but also pain and sadness. I would know what it is to feel strong and what it means to feel weak in body and in spirit. I would have the capability of finding my questions answered by my earthly father or genetic father as much as he was capable of the knowledge I was seeking. Many questions remained unanswered and an anxiety within me began to build and remained for a number of years until I was eight years old, I felt alone and disconnected from my parents to some degree, I felt this was because they spent many evenings drinking and I watched them both become alcoholics, playing games with one another thinking that the problems were because of the other's drinking habits. So they would dump alcoholic beverages belonging to the other down the drain and physical battles would ensue that were so terrible that myself and my sisters and brothers ran upstairs got on our beds and we covered ourselves up with covers but the flesh hitting flesh was so loud it could not be drowned out by blankets so we began to sing real loud and cover our heads with the blankets, hoping that would work. When we heard a thud we knew someone had dropped to the floor or thrown into a wall. But there was one noise that I didn't know and that was one night as I waited on the stairs for my mother to call out, glass breaking with a thud. I got up and peaked around the corner and there she was lying on the floor out cold with glass around her. My dad looked back at me hearing my scream and I ran up the stairs when all of a sudden I had my legs pulled out from under me and I landed with a thud on those wooden stairs. I covered my face and said in my hands," don't hurt mom." I peaked out and thought he was the wolfman coming after me, I was so scared.

When I got up for school and put on the same clothes I wore the day before I brushed my teeth and washed my face and put my coat on for school. I picked up my books and realized I hadn't done any homework the whole night, I didn't remember at all what I was supposed to do. I was on my way to school when a fat girl came up and pinched me so hard I started to cry, she said I am going to do that again and finally, I looked at her and said," fatty you are going to have to catch me first." So I was able to run all the way to school and leave her in the dust, but there she was at recess just waiting for me to come out my door from the classroom." I told her I had a conversation with the principle as to the size of people allowed in the school and he said he had no idea you were in the school and was going to kick you out unless I found something nice about you. She said I know, "I will give you the count of 10 to run and then I am going to catch you and well you know about the big pincher I have." She really tried to catch me and then I turned and stopped short stuck my foot out and KABOOM on the cement she went, yeeeowch!!!!!! That was the end of that situation.

The following summer we went to Lake Cochituate my mom told me about this little place that she had found that she wanted to take me too. It was hard for her to find but she ended up finding it, how in the world she could find such a place I had no idea. It was not a place you could see from any visual location from the park we were visiting. It was totally secluded and overgrown that I was astounded as to how in the world she could find such a place. She told me that she could astral project which was something I had never heard of in my life up to that point. She told me she could sit somewhere and leave her body she said she was tied to her body by a silver cord and could float anywhere but needed to remain on the cord or be disconnected forever. That was how she found this place she saw it from above looking down. I was amazed. We sat in the Adirondack chairs for an hour and enjoyed our time together there. We then returned to the Lake area and the park where the car was located and drove home. I found this experience somewhat flat in what I would have expected, I believed all that was said but it had no wonder about the situation. I knew this was a con job a satanic tool to take away your gaze from the real wonder of Jesus Christ and his Father also My Heavenly Father. So I was disappointed that she remained there and was happy with something that was not the real deal. Frankly, and humbly I was looking for my Father.

Later on that summer we took a ride out to Williamstown, across the state of Massachusetts, one of the most west towns near the Stateline. We were there visiting a family my parents knew, the Lull family. I enjoyed the area, it was on many acres and there was a large barn that stood on the property. The barn was my first place to go looking for an adventure, it had all kinds of equipment and old devices for growing things, an old tractor, plow and other attachments to the tractor. My favorite thing was to go up into the hayloft, there was a little place at the top of the barn that had a place like what was described in the book named,"Heidi", a story about a little orphan girl who went to live with her grandfather in the Alps of Switzerland. He took her in and raised her as his own, which she really was his own kin. She would sleep in a hayloft, and in the winter she would make a bed of hay and sleep on it with a big old quilt. I could imagine myself being Heidi and would have loved to have slept up there in the evening and feel the breezes creep through the doors of the loft, or even leaving them open and looking at the stars as we fell asleep. But no, it was not allowed so I had to be happy with the playtime allowed, but I still could pretend in the daytime, I was happy to be there. During the weekend we spent there, the adults would go to the kitchen and drink beer and make food. One of those days about 1 pm we began hearing loud arguing and then yelling, then my mother came busting out of the kitchen door and asked me, if I would like to take a drive to the summit of the mountain. Nathan and Martin Lull chimed in they would like to go too. As we were drawing closer to the summit, I said something to Nathan that would change my life forever, " If my mother dropped me off anywhere on this mountain I would go through the trees and find my way home." When my mother heard this, she stopped the car and opened my door and said, "get out!" I got out, she closed the door and drove off. I went through the trees because that’s what I said I was going to do and started calling on God openly out loud with tears dripping off my face, "God help me!!", I prayed so intently for his help. He heard me, and I heard Him, " I am here Dawne, I will always be here when you call, I will show you how to go home." I became so happy, I was in wonderment and very humbled by this answer to my prayer. He told me I was His daughter and He would always come to me when I would pray. He told me to keep my feet wet in the stream before me. I stayed and danced in the small stream of water and continued down the mountain, He next showed me an animal path that was before me and to follow the path until he told me differently. In the animal path, I came to a bifurcation in the path one way went to the right the other to the left. I heard his directions and followed the path on the left. I was talking with Him while walking the path and found great peace that I treasured so dearly. I will never forget the feelings that were present on that day. He told me that parents don't always do the right thing when it comes to their families, I was in danger and I was looking for His guidance, He was happy I had a desire to seek His help. He told me that I should try to help my family whenever I could. He also reminded me to always remember I was his Daughter and that He would always be near to me. The relief I felt that day was great I knew He was aware of me and my family and that made me very happy. From that day going forward I did many things to help all the members of my family at different times when I saw the need. I saw each one differently they were precious to me, and I would serve them. I continued my way down the mountain when I came to the side that was covered with small rocks it was steep and I needed to sit down and slide on my seat down to the ground. As I did this the voice said," stop and look !" halfway down the side of the slope I looked out and saw the house my family was staying at, our car was there and as I continued to slide down, I was happy to be so close to seeing everyone again. Finally down, I ran to the kitchen door, and walked in, no one said a word, I knew no one knew, everyone must have thought that I was out playing with all the other kids in our families, except my mother and Nathan and Martin. I looked at her and looked at my father and walked through passing them to the living room, and sat down on the large overstuffed green couch. I realized there was no one there I could share this story with, no one that was ready to accept this phenomenal story of love from above.

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