First Book Delisted and Energetic Healing Woes

I've been writing with the intent of being pubished since 1993 and getting published in various mediums since 1997.

In 2003, my first book, a collection of short stories entitled, "Painting Butterflies in the Nude" was published by Xlibiris. I recently had this book delisted due to a review of my own stories realizing that a couple of the stories weren't written properly as I was new to writing fiction. Poetry has always been my favorite way to write. Poetry was the first type of creative writing that ever came to life for me back in elementary school. Fiction wasn't unfamiliar terrority, but it was new in my young adult years, so I started self-study through books and creative writing courses at a community college. Yet, I found myself feeling utterly dismayed with the quality of my writing from those years. Over the past couple of years, I have been doing some serious exmaination of my own writing, particularly the books that were published. I contacted the company recently and had the book delisted with my intent to have the book completely taken out of print voluntarily.

In addition, the other four books I had published with another company between 2007 and 2011 are all out of print as well, but due to the company shutting down without warning. Three of those books were poetry collections and one was a sel-help book. In 2015, I attempted to another book in the antasy genre entitled, "Takiya and the Crystalstar Travelers." This didn't work out very well either. Needless to say, there wasn't hardly any money made. So, what was it all for?

in a previous piece, I mentioned the self-help book, which included energy healing in the forms of meditation, yoga, and writing. I've attempted to share more of this over the years as well. In 2012, I went through yoga teacher training, started a radio show called Divine Minds Radio during the Summer months and ended the show in late Spring 2013. Recently in the past year or so, I deleted all off those shows. It was an interesting experience and was very popular, wich surprised me. It wasn't my first attempt at a radio show. I had one called Light in You from 2007 to 2011. Then, I had a show called Soul SiSTARs with a friend named Jennifer in 2011, All of which were great experiences, althoug clearly, short experiences.

Since my first Reiki attunement in 2004 until 2013 and working with divinely guided energy flow in between and since, I have attuned/activated a few people along the way. That was always a nice experience in my creative and holistic arts life. However, while I still use this modality in my personal daily living, I feel sharing/teaching it in one-on-one sessions is over for me.

To be honest, in a way, I feel like a failure. I've been Type 2 diabetic for awhile, been battling weight issues since I was young (with victories along the way though), and dealing with being visually impaired (beyond a normal pair of glasses ) for a few years.

So, yes, I get on a 'woe as me' kick from time to time. Yes, I'm having trouble being a strict vegan raw and/or cooking. And I wonder who would want to learn yoga, meditation, or Reiki from me? Whether I want to admit it or not and can't read paper books, magazines, etc.) over the years, I was looking for that miracle cure when I bite into the burger, did some Reiki real quick, and became my normal weight for my height, no dis-eases or abnormalities.

I have heard some say you can be healthy eating anything in moderation, while others are strict in their thinking and experience that eating without meat and dairy is the way to go.

I remember saying to someone that I should stay in my lane as far as the life purpose work goes. But with the sincere interest in certain artistic forms over the years, I found it questionable about what my lane is. And espeically with the recent issues with my book publishing misadventures. It's all questionable. I should've became a bad Vegas singer or something, I don't know.

People measure success differently. I try to remember compliments received over the years of certain pieces of writing online. However, I haven't made much money at all.

The original mission was to do my inner work, encourage others to do the same through creative writing and meditation, and inspire others to seriously consider their life purpose.

Well, I'm still here.

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