Empty Life after Marriage(Turning point in life after education and career field)It can be sweet or bitter-Goes according to our Mind set..{How I SPEND My NIGHT's }

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Hmmmm...to start.. I wake up at 1 am or 2 am suddenly ..my hand stretching out beside me feeling for my Darlu (hubby) in that scary darkness{which I always tend to do when something wakes me up} Finding him nicely sleeping beside me comforts and helps me kick back to sleep easily. But on almost all the night's this year my hands find only vacant space.Neither my Mom nor 'Him' next to me makes me go blank.As usual to say ,Darlu is out for his job concentrating on it, enjoying with his friends now n then ,thinking of me a little (not much as I do about him). And......I .... roll over left to right and right to left in the dark and then immediately grab on to my pillow tight,pick my phone in one of my hand ,aiding my eyes to get adjusted with the bright light, and I check for a text from my darlu ... Nope. Nothing do I find. Then.. I read our previous sweet chatting 's and wish that I could go back to sleep, but my heart starts racing speedily and pound's heavily thinking about my loneliness,worrying about the future. Unable to stabilize my mind I start seeing pics of my baby bro ,mom(mostly) family ,friends etc etc..making my eyes suddenly glow wider in happiness ,cheering my heart,brushing back to my spinster life and wondering whether I could stroll back to that happy : peaceful care free life fulfilling all my wishes n dreams..and doing "Whatever I want" .!! Once I start getting deeper into my previous life ..I start hating my current life and situation...that is when I realize I have been locked up and conditioned to be dependent from being independent like before. Then frustratingly I close the gallery and look at the time to continue my lost sleep ,but it's already 5'o clock and I simply keep my phone aside and lie down for another hour thinking of my "To -do list" for the new day. Hence .. Every single day of mine is turning out to be gloomy and monotonous. This experience may be same for girl's whose husband's travel frequently for working abroad..(and have been separated from their home town & family)....!!

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