Batteling My Demons!
What I have learned over the years is that you cant get no were in life without God by your side no matter how bad things may get he will always be beside you no matter what the case may be.
I've learned thru all my sins it doesn't get me anywhere sept trouble and pushes everyone away including the man upstairs. Im not innocent at all I have a bad past but my present and future shall be the only thing that should be held accountable for. There is no going back just keep looking forward and doing Gods work.
Over the past month I've had some really hard life decisions to make and decide. i no i was going down a horrible path once again. A path only a demon would enter. A path no one would ever want or even want around them. my past has gotten me in so much trouble all my life between steeling smoking drinking partying drugs whoring around etc it got me to were I was a month in half ago lost soul again. granite allot of the things ve mentioned from my past I wasn't doing a month in half ago it still has a tole on my life. I became the demon once again I refused to ever return to. i became that demon that was using and abusing everyone around me to try to cope the only ways i knew to cope and find inner peace. Did this help matters any? no it didn't all it has done is made things ten times harder on me. I lost the love of my life for a month in a half I also lost everyone else that I ever knew. I lost my boxing and my crossfit goals. I became a very uncontrollable person who was drinking using and being brainwashed into believing something that wasn't really there. The demon had ahold of me so bad it took me hitting rock bottom going back to the town were im originally from to open my eyes and see who I really was being and who I really should be and change tremendously. It took me and God together to open my eyes and make me see what I was doing sooo bad and soo wrong in so many eyes before the Lord...... Only I can change this now for the better. No matter how many people may think bad may think wrong or anything else that may trigger me I will not let it come in between me and God. For he has opened me with all the holy sprit showing me guiding me back were I belong were I am meant to be not were the devil wants me anymore. I shall repent and believe my father is 3 in one and will always no matter what help me. Regardless of how mad he may get he knows I want the best in my life.
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