Not Good Enough
I’m not every going to be good enough,
Am I,
For what you want
And I just cant stand,
I hate myself
For not becoming your brand,
I want it to just go away,
I just want to die,
And carry my own,
Without a blade by my side,
You left me here to abandon me alone,
I just cant be helped
The ones I love have gone away,
As I just sit in dismay,
What must I be,
To end up with just me,
The long lasting unconditional love
Has died,
But I just cant hide,
That I’ve lost you all,
And hate that its all,
My fault
For making you hate me
For what I am,
A disgusting disarray,
The devil in me,
Will not go away,
I stab at it,
But it just stays,
For what you have done to me is bad,
But what I have done to you is worse,
I wish that I could
Just die a thousand deaths
And have not been born,
I am the stone child,
Whos ice spread to all I touched,
I wrecked all your lives,
Just by being born,
I wont ever be good enough,
For what you want and need,
For I am sick and in dire need,
Of a noose and executioner,
Please just proceed,
I hate myself and want to die,
The parishioner said that the devils inside,
Just take me away,
So they can be let be
And I can be set free.
Copyright © Natasha Evans | Year Posted 2008
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