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Best Poems Written by Natasha Evans

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Not Good Enough

I’m not every going to be good enough,
Am I,
For what you want
And I just cant stand,
I hate myself
For not becoming your brand,
I want it to just go away,
I just want to die,
And carry my own,
Without a blade by my side,

You left me here to abandon me alone,
I just cant be helped
The ones I love have gone away,
As I just sit in dismay,
What must I be,
To end up with just me,

The long lasting unconditional love
Has died,
But I just cant hide,
That I’ve lost you all,
And hate that its all,
My fault
For making you hate me
For what I am,
A disgusting disarray, 

The devil in me,
Will not go away,
I stab at it, 
But it just stays,

For what you have done to me is bad,
But what I have done to you is worse,
I wish that I could
Just die a thousand deaths 
And have not been born,

I am the stone child,
Whos ice spread to all I touched,
I wrecked all your lives,
Just by being born,

I wont ever be good enough,
For what you want and need,
For I am sick and in dire need,
Of a noose and executioner,
Please just proceed,

I hate myself and want to die,
The parishioner said that the devils inside,
Just take me away,
So they can be let be
And I can be set free.

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The Devil Child

What’s wrong with me?
Why can’t I do anything right?
I will never be good enough,
Not for you,
I’m not skinny enough,
Not smart enough,
I’m the fire that has to be extinguished,
Got rid of and thrown away,
As I’m far too much trouble,
I really am the devil incarnate,

You say over and over,
“whats the matter with you?”
I’m just the problem,
With no solution,
An illness,
With no cure,
I try and try to just do what you see fit,
But I’m still more trouble than im worth,
Why would anyone want me?

I’ve failed at everything,
Everything I’ve ever done,
The disappointed comments hurt,
But the silenced disappointment hurts even more,
Like knives through me,
The searing pain hurting me,
But satisfying you,
It makes me want to cry,
To explode,
To just die,

“How did you turn out like this?”
You say,
“You had such a good childhood
You’ve wrecked everything
Causing such problems
I’m disappointed in you for doing those things,
What’s wrong with you?
Why can’t you do anything right.”

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Just Tell Me

My heart beats hard in my chest,
Each breath becomes more shallow,
I can feel every vein pumping,
Pumping,
The blood around my body,
Im waiting,
Waiting,
For you to decide my fate,
Just send the message so that I can deflate,

I cry inside,
My eyes feel warm,
Yet no tears come,
I feel my heart pumping,
Pumping,
Keeping me alive,
I wish it would just stop,
I hate the anticipation,
I know whats coming,
Im just waiting,
Waiting,
For you to tell me,

It’s the same every time,
Every frickin time,
You come make me whole,
Then leave me broken,
Again, again and again,

The blood runs too fast,
Too fast around my body,
I need to cut it out,
When you have a tumour,
You cut it out,
This is my tumour,
It needs to be let out,
And set me free,

Cut and let the blood flow,
Cut and let go.

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Goodbye

I’m so sorry that I had to leave you there,
With those who obviously don’t care,
Sorry for letting you down,
And yet again losing my crown,

I’m sorry for what she will do,
And for what she’s done,
I’m already free but I have to let you be,
She is the puppeteer and you are the puppet,
The strings will one day be broken,
Let’s just hope that its sooner for you,

I’m sorry that I had to let you go,
But its for the best, one day you’ll know,
If I had stayed what more could I have done,
I just can’t stop the evil one,
I hate myself for leaving you to cope,
All by yourself with not a soul,
My insides ache, and my head cries,
I miss you so much,
But can’t see you cry,

I think about you every day,
And still hope and pray,
That you will one day be okay.

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Its Over

No longer can you break me to pieces,
Rip me apart infront of those I love,
You can’t get to me and that must drive you crazy,
I’m a better person than you will ever be,
Success is definitely the best revenge,

I spent years despising myself,
Just to realise the one who is ill is you,
I should hate you,
But I don’t,
I pity you,
For you must have had somethink,
Really bad happen to you,
For you to end up like that,

The bird has flown the coop,
Never shall it return,
To the hell it once came from,
For that is now dead and buried for all eternity.

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Help

i scream,
but no one hears,
i need help,
but the world is deaf,

i want to break my head,
just to make it go away,
i cant take this feeling,

please just help me,
make it go away,
how can i show you,
how much pain is in my head,

i need help,
not to be told im crazy,
because of my track lines,
there red and raised now,
i have to keep the scarlet away,

i want to rip out my hair,
and scratch until the dirt goes away,
im so unclean,
no matter how much i scrape off,
it just isnt enough to eliminate,
the daggers in my head

please help me

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Crazed

I see you cut and cry,
And just want to die,
I try to help,
But you can’t see me there
I want to help,
But what should I do,
I’m just invisible to you,

I don’t understand why your like this,
I see you crazed,
But you hate that name,
But why would you do that?

You think you broken,
So repeatedly banging it
Against a wall will help,
I don’t think,

You need help,
You see that in those split seconds
When your gone,
And I just sit at the mirror,
In reflection of us.

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Mum

The worst thing that I can be,
Is to be me,
I feel like a black haze,
Always in a daze,
I can see all my negatives,
I can’t even do being ill right,

I can see the spiral turning round and round,
I see me go,
To and fro,
Threading and shredding as I swallow,
Your thoughts down,
And around,
Ripping me to pieces,

Your tongue like razors,
The razor that cuts me open,
The same ones that scar me,
Visually but without connectivity,

My heart screams,
As I bleed,
I just need,
A mummy there
To hold me,

Why wont you just
 Say my name?
You done get me without it,
You don’t get it without me,
Why can’t you understand
That this isn’t me,

O mummy please just love me,

Not because I did what you wanted,
And became who you wanted
Me to be,
But because
I carry on and live each day
As myself and nobody else,

Please just love me

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Dont Go

Stay with me,
And hold me tight,
Don’t let go,
Not ever,
Please stay with me forever,

All I have to do is look at you,
And I smile,
Your love drives out the darkness,
The hate just disappears,
I can almost see it melt from within me,
If your not here,
Who will run my demons away,
They will get stuck in my head,
I need you there to help me to set them free,

Please don’t go,
Stay with me,
I can t be there,
Without you there,
To help me.

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Be There

My head feels so numb,
And the tears won’t come,
As soon as a bad one,
Comes back again,
You run off,
Leaving me,
To cope once again,

How can I cope without you there,
To catch me when I fall,
You are my all,
You left me there to crawl
And brawl,
Alone again in ones den,

My insides shatter,
Into tiny pieces,
Too small to mend,
Too small to comprehend,
I can’t be glued I am just too screwed,

I’m a bird in flight,
Who gets shot with a fright,
Descending with a frown,
I’ve lost my crown,

I’m red for what I’ve done,
I’m scarlet for what I will do,
I can’t do much but make do,
But as for you,
My tears make you laugh,
I just want you so bad,
I hope it’s just a fad,

I don’t see tomorrow,
But I see yesterday,
But I won’t want to see tomorrow,
Because of my sorrow,
Somethings stopping me,
From being happy,
I think its you,
Because your gone,

I need you there just to care,
To say those nice thing,
And just be there,
Just to wake up,
And see you there,
For you to kiss my hair,

Just for you to dare.