A Letter To Fear
You to whom I shall surrender
Why would you gift me with chaos?
And Make me swim in rivers that have gone dry
I found myself collecting dead roses
Out of graves that no one visits anymore
How far can you go?
To feed me lyrics of old songs
For my heart to beat music
And I shall wait for the rain
For the storms, inside of me
To drive in the most anticipated spring
I do not wish for my soul to be yours
I am too small, yet you fill me with emptiness
My verses are too vain
My poetry is nostalgia
My aim remains unfound
And you, you keep opening letters coming to the wrong address
Stealing trees I have spent years planting
You to whom I dedicate my weakness
Do you not wish to free me from your chains?
For They are too heavy
I can feel my abolition
Be gone, and grant me peace
All I want is to feel each season alone
You see, my ambition is not that big
I just want to see my seeds grow
Release me, I beg you
There is no place for me to hide
Leave me, for I seek to be complete
I no longer serve as your playground
Time have built me with strong bricks
To save me from earthquakes and hurricanes
But my intention is not to be saved
I do not aspire to stand against nature
I do not wish to fight wars I have not caused
So would you just leave me?
I shall be responsible of my own drowning
I shall witness my own destruction
Just let me heal my own soul
Let me hide my heart in libraries
Because you see, I do not wish to be found
I distributed my feelings in books
For one day I shall find me.
Copyright © Oumayma Boumhali | Year Posted 2015
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