Is It Love
What is this feeling that has imprisoned my heart?
Something so vicious even when away it is never apart.
The throbbing of your spirit is in sync with the
pulsating of my body when you are near.
The sincerity of your soul and the soothing touch of
your hand helps wipe away any fear.
I never experienced this type of felling before.
But is this love, or a crush that I presently adore?
The felling I have of just the appetizer of you.
This feeling can’t be right, maybe it’s a sin too.
Honestly I try to control it but I can not.
For some reason the thought of your strength gets me hot.
I ask God to forgive me or help me to control this urge.
But I’m afraid I’m hooked for intimately our spirits have merged.
I crave your thoughts like I crave chocolate during PMS.
Just being in your presents brings out my best.
I use to think I was complete but you proved me wrong.
I was 2 halves and not 1 whole for oh, so long.
Father God, help us not fall in to temptation.
Cause I believe this man has to be one of your best creations.
And tell me if it’s your will or a sin, is it love or lust.
Tell me if it’s ever lasting or soon to end, if it’s just a crush.
I know time will tell so let’s wait and see.
This conflict with the “pain of waiting… the joy if I do” is tearing at me.
This feeling must be out of “His” will and is destined to ruin the chance,
Of waiting and letting this be a true romance.
To realize everything you give me I truly disserve to have.
That I don’t have to give you anything except the occasional smile and laugh.
The feeling of growing together and not just in a physical way.
But us both learning to be adults and growing mentally together every day.
So for now we will wait through the tears and all the pain.
One thing for sure if this is more than a crush, with time we both shall remain.
Jadda J.
Copyright © Jadda Jenkins | Year Posted 2006
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