Unmask
As I lay here wondering of the future and what it holds for me, I embrace myself.
My soul begins to get disturb and my heart becomes very heavy.
What is it that I’m over looking? What is it that I’m supposed to see?
I pray that the Lord will give me a sign, but in the mean time I focus on how to better me and humble myself.
My pain is endless like an ocean, my tears are unseen yet I’m not going to question why me, instead I ask what is my purpose, was I born destine to fail my love ones?
Causing them shame and pain throughout this dirty game that's called life!
My smile is bright but my soul is so dim and thirsty for something yet I don't feel.
A sinner, I am but I learn to repent wondering do a sinner‘s prayer even make it to his kingdom but I pray only when I hurt.
My soul is crying for understanding, my mind is reaching for a clue, my heart beat’s heavy ,knowledge I’m demanding but my Lord why am I still standing?
I’ve forgiven those that have hurt me deeply and I have forgiven myself as well yet I feel as if I failed.
I kneel before you unmasked, you know my heart and my every intention, and Lord please don't forget me. I been through Hell right here on earth and I’ve been burnt too many times to count, too ashamed to keep up with. Lord it's me...Nikki...unmask.
Copyright © Nasheika Mays | Year Posted 2012
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