He Will Not Let Me Go
a light has faded to a dim morage
existence has left my face
his thoughts are now my own
i can't see through this tunnel
my mask is a permanent adhesive
epitome of wrong
he will not let me go
although reason is within my reach
the grasp is too loose for my control
or is it the sight which is too far away
i watch with a broken mind
the corner jagged by emptiness
without remorse from the blackened heart
of the one i cannot save
his breath is cold upon my face
desperation penetrates my skin
radiance has left my eyes
my smile's authenticity gone
---somehow i break free
from his gnashing claws
that have been inside for so long
some grace seems to enter
through the barrier of my true core
the walls crumble with hesitation
for an instant
i feel innocence cover me
i spread my smile wide and breathe freely
it's as if i have been reborn
i can see things more vividly
everything seems beautiful
bright, pure, open wide
i can speak without asking
i don't feel tortured or ashamed
i am not looking over my shoulder
---but he will not let me go
he looms at me unwanted; unwelcomed
he always finds me
still controlling my every thought
like a fire consuming me into darkness
erasing my free will
it is infinite
i am under his command
he will not let me go
Copyright © Terra Stevens | Year Posted 2005
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