This Time Last Year
This time last year, my life was filled with fear
My eyes were cloudy with tears and my heart was hurting and sheer
I masked all my feeling in hopes that time would help me heal
But things seemed to get worse and more worst still
The people that loved me had no idea
The people that hated me felt nothing by will
My life was not worth living, but only I knew
My child's smile was like sunshine, but still I felt blue
I played it off like an actress up for an academy award
But my insides were in shambles, as if I had been slayed by a sword
I lived each day like a chameleon blending in with its environment
But inside my soul was being tortured like a tyrant
My individuality was almost nonexistent
And my social interaction turned into resistance
I hid from the world as well as myself
Every time I exhaled, it felt like my last breath
I was dying inside with no lifelines to use
I was overly emotional and severely bruised
Just when I thought I couldn't take it any longer
I had a dream that changed my life and made me stronger
Why should what you did to me make me sad?
Why should the pain you caused me be so bad?
Why on earth would I let you win?
I knew at that moment my life would begin
Never let your past control your life
Never let what you've experienced stop your fight
As simple as it seems, the complexity is what we face
What happens behind closed doors still occupies space
I learned who I am and what I am destined to be
This time last year, is a year ago that I became free.
Copyright © Nakyda Ervin | Year Posted 2012
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