What It’s Like Without You
Knots in my stomach never untied
I feel them tighten more and more each time
tightness
in my chest inside and out
tears
as they are swell up in my eyes waiting to be released
Trapped in a loop of trying to move on
and trying to look back on the past
wondering how you would guide me through it
The way you would help me through bad times
now having to go through it alone
the way memories feel so long ago
the moments we shared are now told as reminders of your dwindling presence and not reminisces of the experiences shared
Over time some days feel lighter
and the knots loosen
but still my stomach is knotted
the tightness in my chest fades
the pain is still there
my tears dried up
doesn’t mean there isn’t more to come
These feelings don’t disappear
they are there watching over like a shadow
just how you watch over me
the question isn’t to move on
it’s to remember and look forward
Its not a crime to mourn you even if years have passed and seasons have changed
missing you feels like a lifetime and a second at the same time
Even if my memories with you are distancing us with time
they are still in my heart
loving you will never go away
even though your not here anymore
our love is unbreakable through journeys and time
Copyright © Linn Hucakby | Year Posted 2025
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