Hopeless
Cold and lifeless, empty nothingness so deep consuming my life
Left feeling hopeless, not caring whether I live or die
Chaos and conflict, all that meant everything is gone
My kids, my home, my happiness, my will to fight and be strong
Addiction has taken me, I hear the devil whispering he will set me free
I surrender as I let the warmth rush through every part of me
Numbness overtakes, all emotions subside
I can forget it all for awhile, escape from my mind
I open my eyes only to realize how fast time has passed, this isn't the life I wanted to choose
I question how this could be me, I can no longer deny or hide from the truth
Overwhelming panic takes over, I know I'm fighting for my life
Everyone has turned their backs, thinking tough love is what's right
I pray for their understanding, to feel like I'm not alone
I beg to please set aside their hate, to understand I can't win this battle on my own
Maybe that's the lesson, the only person who has me is me
Maybe when I'm laid to rest, thats where I will have finally found peace
Each passing day I feel weaker, spiraling down the hole I go
Never have I struggled so much, never have I felt so low
It was never worth it, so much regret, so much shame
Accepting the consequences of my choices, I only have me to blame
Copyright © Taylor Banks | Year Posted 2023
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