Tell Them
I used to think you were the one
My own the last to be mine
Yet you were a monster
Deceiving me and i fell for an imposter
My heart is bleeding like bust sewage pipes
My mind is crying ice blocks of pain
My soul is burning but your face is fading away with my tears
I used to be afraid
I used to be sad and mad
But now I no longer care like you do
It's no longer painful as it used to too
You broke my heart a thousand times and never bothered to say you're sorry
While I begged you every time for your time you never had time to hear my story
I remember vividly the cold nights I spend curled in my sheets lonely
Only to wake up bleeding for you
With scares and bruises from the hell you put me through
Now go on shame me
Tell them as you claim that I am a fool
Tell them I stink like fresh stool
Tell them I am moody and my face is always blue
That I was just a tool wrapped around you like a spool
But now you are fading away into the shadows of my time
Where I won't reach even in a dream
Were you won't exist even in name
I remember dialling your number a hundred times and the only voice I got was a voice note
the times you picked your phone you would be busy
and I would wonder how easy it was for you that word to spit
Or your phone would be going flat
Or you would say it's a little too late
And pain would reap through my ribs leaving my heart at its own mercy
As your wicked thumb drop my call with no remorse
So go on shame me
Tell them I am the one to blame
That I am not a real man but a clown
That I am mean and have no plan
That I am just a useless picture frame
That I will never change but remain the same
That I am filthy and impure
Tell them from the beginning you were unsure
But I am healing as my tears faints
And happier the darker the shadows you paint
I hear you are saying that I am immature
I hear you are talking about me being insecure
I hear you're laughing that I am poor
Now I look through your pics and wonder how I fell for such a monster
The last time you called a minute call felt like an hour
So go on
Tell them you have moved on
Tell them you never felt at home
Tell them you don't love me anymore
Tell them you never loved me at all
But the lies you told me and laughed with your queer friends that I fell for
I will shove them one at a time on your face
Until I dress you bare into the pig that you are
And No leSS
Copyright © Julius Machiri | Year Posted 2021
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