How Long Will This Last?
I try not to think of that awful night;
Even though I know that's not right.
It hurts so much to think of what you said;
I've tried so hard to put it out of my head.
I remember how quickly my world came to an end;
I'd lost the guy I loved and my best friend.
I didn't know what to say, all I could do is cry;
I remember how much I wanted to die.
Slowly now, almost four months have passed;
And I'm still hurting, how long will this last?
When you left, I lost something I can't get back;
The ability to love someone else is what I lack.
You said you wouldn't hurt me like others have before;
All the trust I had was lost when you walked out the door.
I will never again be able to trust anyone;
My days of being hurt are over and done.
I now know all the things I did wrong;
I let my guard down, believed our love was strong.
For you, there was nothing I wouldn't do;
I would've changed my whole life for you.
I wonder sometimes if I hadn't been that way;
If you'd still be with me today.
I know you loved me more than anything;
I remember how you cried when you gave me my ring.
You hurt me so much and you broke my heart;
But still I wish we weren't apart.
You're so happy now from what I can see;
And you so easily forgot about me.
That hurts me more than you could ever know;
I wish to God I could let you go.
I know I can't do that as long as I care;
And sometimes it seems I'll love you forever, I swear.
It doesn't matter who it is or whatever the case;
No one will ever be able take your place.
I know I will never find someone new;
Because the only one I'll really ever want is you!
Copyright © Stephanie Inshetski | Year Posted 2008
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