The Year
This year of hell
Is over at last
I hope and pray
It’s now in the past
But still I feel
That I’m not believed
How do I change this?
I feel so aggrieved
I do feel stronger but
There is a long way to go
I still feel panic
Being anxious and low
I’m terrified of conflict
Arguments and rows
So how can I change?
Live here and now
I need to move on
Get a life at last
Try to get over
My nightmare past
I’ve started to change
Begun to feel free
But I do still wonder
Will I find the real me
I crave to be held
To feel safe and loved
No longer alone or in danger
No more hate, just love
I may be too soft
Lead with my heart
But I’m starting to change
Move on from my past
I love my children
They are my life
I will always protect them
Throughout their lives
They have been damaged
And abused by their daddy
It is no surprise
They acted so badly
They are good kids
Deep down inside
They’ve changed for the better
They really have tried
I know they are hard work
Their special needs are tough
They want a loving daddy
To treat them as such
I want them to feel
Loved, happy and free
To have a childhood
Better than me
I’m so afraid
Of what their lives’ hold
Will they survive?
Be able to grow old
In this mad world
Will they cope?
With everyday life and
Achieve their hopes
I want to hold them and
Protect them from hurt
Unlike me, not be treated
Like worthless dirt
They deserve more
Than the life they have had
I will make sure that
Their life is not bad
I want people to see
How they are now
Not how they behaved
Two years ago
Things are better
For all of us
Beginning to live and
Starting to trust
Give us a chance
Help us live free
Accepting my children
Accepting me
Helen-Louise
26th February 2008
Copyright © Helen-Louise Savage | Year Posted 2008
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