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Sandy Schermerhorn Poem
You are my everything
You are the reason my heart hears the angels' sing
You are the why from miles away I can hear the church bells ring
You are why I keep trying to persevere
You are the one I need to hold ever so near
You are my path of all resistance
You are the one who keeps pulling away as I keep pulling you near with consistence
You are the one with whom I would listen to in your beckoning insistence
You are who I still see way off in the distance
You treated me with such commitment and love
You are the one man I have always dreamed of
You are the very air I breathe
You are the reason from him I longed to be free
You are who I would live and die for
You are the one I need by my side and more
You showed me true love like no one had ever done before, and unlike I have never known
You took me to those places where undescribable, undeniable, and extreme passionate
feelings were shown
You are my candle in the wind, my sun, and my rain
You are my forever desire, my one eternal flame
You and your wonderfulness has always driven me absolutely insane
You radiate such a pure love inside and out
You are who I want to have in my life this I have no doubt
You are where I dream to be enraptured and entwined in each others' arms
You are the only one I wish to be lost in the moments by your charms
You are someone I know I don't have to pretend
You, I never want to let go of, never do I again want this in any way to end
You are tenderness so deep within
You and your words standing waiting for them is where I choose to hinge
You are my savior from all else right or wrong in my life, the one to which a profound deep
admiration of friendship, then so much more, I cling
You are what true love needs to always bring
You are my devotion and my everything...
...plain as anyone can see, I for you, you for me from today set forth throughout all eternity
Copyright © Sandy Schermerhorn | Year Posted 2008
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Sandy Schermerhorn Poem
There was a time when I didn't have much to care about
even with people all around me
and now it seems like I have to much to care about
but where is everyone today
my life was suddenly turned upside down
spinning out of control
then one day from out of the blue I thought of the time
I spent with you
even though our time together was short lived
it had so much to give
and the memories came pouring in my mind and out of my eyes
all of a sudden I realized
you were more to me than just another guy or friend
I can't help but wonder
will I ever get to see you again?
Most of our time was spent talking on the phone
but there were also the moments
we spent alone
I remember holding each other close whenever we were near
never wanting to let go
cause we knew we couldn't hold each other come tomorrow
we didn't get to see each other very much
and damn it now I wish to God we had stayed in touch
something here has got to give
I'm running out of things to believe in
that's why I pray everyday for an answer to my question
will I ever get to see you again?
I think of the time where we watched the game with your
friends and family
and then with no kind of planning
we were alone together
and we spent our first and only night
holding one another tight untill the morning
I remember how when we looked deep into each others eyes
for me life stopped for a moment at that time
and it was you that had my hyponotized
oh so many butterfiles
it has taken this long for me to realize
that never has anyone taken me there again
my biggest mistake I've ever made was not telling you how I truely felt
I couldn't put it in the right words
because I really wasn't sure of my emotions
thought it was just what was happening in the moment
and give time I would be alright
never did I believe now I would be in such torment
the pain of not knowing
will I ever get to see you again?
Need to find you to let you know
that you are the only one I could never let go and I really do love you so
oh somebody please help me find the answers
because I do need to know
will I ever get to see you, hold you, tell you I am in love with you again?
If so when?
Copyright © Sandy Schermerhorn | Year Posted 2007
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Sandy Schermerhorn Poem
I'm sorry to all of my children
How I wish I could go back to change
The wrong things I've put you all through
And to make time rearrange
Those times to good moments for all of you
I'm sorry for what my life, fears and screw ups have put all four of you through
I simply rolled with what those fears handed me
Yes I so should've done more
And not just let it be
I was so scared and didn't really know what to do
When you're standing inside a house with the rook on fire
Well you, in that moment, are to blind to see
What's happening all around
Now I see it all to clearly and the fire is burning everything down to the ground
I'm sorry I wasn't there for you like I should've been
There's no excuse for it
Those wounds you now bear may not ever mend
And I live with that everyday
But that doesn't mean the love that I feel
For each one of you isn't real
It most certainly is
I'm not asking any of you to forgive me or accept my apology
But know that this all comes from my heart
Pain and rage will tear ones soul apart
And none of these words will make the past different, go away or any better
We do still have a chance, however, to overcome it and get through the stormy
weather together
Being better people in the end
So while this don't make my mistakes you bear go away
I still need to say
You can hate me more and more everyday
If that's what is helping you to get by and cope
But no matter how much hate you have for me, I still love all four of you
unconditionally
Perhaps one day you can each find it in your hearts to forgive me
Not for me, but for yourselves cause it's truly the only way you'll ever fully be able to
move on........Love Mom
Copyright © Sandy Schermerhorn | Year Posted 2011
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Sandy Schermerhorn Poem
It's not your fault
I make myself insane
It's not your fault
As to why I cause myself all this pain
It's not your fault
I'm so crazy over you
It's not your fault
I'm alone and so blue
It's not your fault
So much time has gone by
It's not your fault
I sit around and ask over and over again why
It's not your fault
I'm not sure for your love I should even try
It's not your fault
I constantly cry
It's not your fault
You don't want to talk to me
It's not your fault
What is right in front of me that I just won't see
It's not your fault
I feel this way
It's not your fault
I feel this every single day
It's not your fault
You have your doubts
It's not your fault
I see no way out
It's not your fault
To you I gave my heart
It's not your fault
Why we broke apart
It's not your fault
That it's you I long to hold
it's not your fault
As to why my life unfolds
It's not your fault
For me this may never go away
It's not your fault
That I really must tell you the words I need so much and waited far to long to say
It's not your fault
I now have to turn around to go away
And yes I know
It's not your fault
That I will always be in love with you so
Copyright © Sandy Schermerhorn | Year Posted 2008
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Rollercoaster of emotions
Shattered dreams, scattered devotions
An empty shell of someone that longs to be loved
That special someone that is sent from up above
One person’s selfish intentions to do nothing but lie
Another persons selfless intentions to turn, walk away and swallowing their pride
Knowing they will be the ones to lay down and cry
Now my tears will no longer fall
I can’t hold my head up, I feel so lonely and small
No one seems to see me
They just seem to leave me be
I’m the one that’s down on the floor
A broke down mess just like before
Judged upon for the way I look
My hopes and dreams that some just took
It’s not what’s on the outside, it’s what’s on the inside that counts
People would be amazed at the abundant amount
The love I have deep in my soul and within my heart
I have yet, however, to find that one to make a start
Most will never know my real true self
They will not ever receive compensation of all my loves wealth
So yeah kick me while I’m low
And then turn right around and leave just damn well go
I’ll be left here with my rollercoaster of emotions
Shattered dreams and broken devotions
An empty shell of someone that longs to be loved
And I wonder will I ever get my someone special sent from up above
I think sometimes the best of all the years have just passed right on by
Where have they gone I wonder with a sigh
But that don’t mean I’m not going to keep trying no matter how it leaves me restless
Because maybe just maybe I’ll find that one that will leave me breathless
Copyright © Sandy Schermerhorn | Year Posted 2010
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Who the hell is he to tell me I don't deserve my kids
That they should be with him simply because they're his
Well they certainly don't deserve this
Someone who only has them for his own selfish needs and wants
Do this, do that, he barks and what not
In his delusional mind, he's never done anything wrong
The day will come when he will fall because they will overcome him and be strong
I'll see to it, as I from a distance observe
Cause then he will finally get what he truly deserves
Who the hell is she to say to me that I don't deserve the man I love
Just because she's the one whose there with him don't mean she's the one he dreams of
What does she think they're a match made from the heavens above?
This coming from someone who needed, from him before, her space
He's the only man I long to embrace
While she ran and it was him, she couldn't face
Because she claimed, she had to find her footing, and slow down the pace
However, she played him for second best; she didn't ever really want him
Yeah that's right, what she was doing was hoping to get back the guy she really wanted
The guy she had been captivated by, leaving her feeling, without that guy, daunted
She took and waved that guy in his face, yeah she flaunted
Yet I'm the one, by the memory of the man I love, left here being haunted
Damn it, I'm the one who’s taunted
Brought down to my knees
Needing so much to be held by him endlessly
However, I hold on to our moments and keep them well preserved
Cause I know he and I being together is what we both deserve
Who are you to whisper inside a scream
That I don't deserve to dream
Even if it may end up hurting me
Don't try putting in my head what I should or shouldn't believe
I'm allowed to see what I want to see
And be who I want and choose to be
I can and will do this on my own
Yet in this endeavor, I'm not alone
I have friends and family that love me no matter what
Yep without a doubt, or how deep the hole or rut
They're right there holding out their hand
Not like some people before in my past that would bury their heads in the sand
No longer do I have to be the one whose picked on or called names
No more do I have to be called last to play any of their silly games
Never again will I let anyone control me that I lose the person I became
No way will I ever again give my love, heart, or soul away in vain
Nope I won't be her not that shy girl who sat there so timid and reserved
Cause that's not at all what I deserve
Copyright © Sandy Schermerhorn | Year Posted 2009
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What I wouldn’t do to have you here
Kiss you, love you and just hold you near
To release all the demons
Let go of all the fears
I pray for the chance to show you
All that would be in store
To be able to love you at your worst
At your best simply adore
I long to hold you every night
Your strong arms wrapped around me
So securely and tight
Looking deeply into each others eyes
As time stops and we take flight
Knowing in those very moments
All is as is should be and right
Passionately needing and hanging on each and every single kiss
Anytime day or night all I think of is all of this
Being with you and only you
In loves pure heavenly bliss
But all this being said
I still have lots more to say
I miss all of you and worry about you
Every single day
Never would I ever intentionally hurt you
Or even disappoint
Knowing now I could’ve done just that
Leaves me sad and blue
My head spinning, my mind reeling
Not sure what to say or do
I keep searching for the words or the actions
But I have no clue
And all of these written words
Are straight from my heart
And are all true
Very much meant for only you
But don’t mistake my mistakes
For purposely not caring
Cause I probably care too much
Don’t take my trust
For any sign of weakness or such
Don’t ever doubt the love I have in my heart and soul all for you
And realize that sometimes I really don’t know what I do
In showing how I feel about you
And don’t misunderstand my submissive ways
Just because I give in to most of what you say
Don’t mean I’m not strong enough to handle, with you, a day as today
Yes I have my faults, we all do
Yes I have issues, so do you
But without each and every one of them
I wouldn’t be me
And they make me the strong, caring, trusting, and loving woman
You see before you
The one you say you love
The one that gives thanks to God and the stars from up above
That you came into my life
Just as I was ready to give up and facing horrible strife
To love someone perfectly
Is to love all of their imperfections
So take me as I am
For whom I am
And for what I am
As I do you
I will show you
What true love
Will and very much can do
I love you
Copyright © Sandy Schermerhorn | Year Posted 2013
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Sandy Schermerhorn Poem
The mirror breaks
And the shards of glass
Pierce through your soul
The pieces lie there on the floor
While you’re trying
To regain your control
You’re there feeling helpless
Completely hopeless
And so very alone
But you don’t have to feel that way
Open your eyes and see me there
You don’t need to do this on your own
You can blind me with your darkness
I could help you find your light
Just let me feel your pain
Don’t fear what I have to offer
Follow with your heart
And then the rest of you will do the same
Together let’s piece those shards back together again
Erase the pain forevermore
Heal your wounds that hurt your heart
I know where you are with this
I’ve been there before
But listen to your feelings and with all the love we both have to give take and make a start...
...that will never end
Copyright © Sandy Schermerhorn | Year Posted 2009
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I don't know exactly today as to who or where you are
All I know for sure is you're close, yet still so very far
And that I'm here wishing and praying on each and every single star
That someday soon our paths will somehow, someway cross
And within every essence of you, find true love cause without you all I've found is true
heartache, pain, and loss
I am always remembering your eyes, and recalling your smile
I constantly am hearing your voice and knowing just having you in my memory makes all
this loneliness so worth while
I know the smell of your skin
I need to be taken into your temptation and have all the desires that we both have from so
deep within
You're out there somewhere, I know
I can feel it deep down in my heart and in the bottom of my soul
It's just the finding you
I search all faces looking for any kind of small clue
Of who you are, where you've been for all my life
Only to be left with more sorrow, hurt, and strife
I'm wondering if you're searching for me to
Do you lock yourself away feeling nothing but hardened, cold, and blue?
Are your heartbreaks plenty and true loves too few?
Do you seek your answers as to what exactly is there for you to do?
Neither one of us has seemed to make finding the other easy at all
No one likes to watch their heart forever fall
So we hide behind our walls
Only to be even more hurt from not having the one that you and only you can truly, and
completely love
You have to sometimes know heartbreak before you can find that special someone that is
sent to you from up above
So no I don't know as today exactly who or where you are
Anymore than you know me
I do know there's no place that I won't go to find you, there's no place quite that far
Because this love, when we find it together, is meant to be
Search and we shall seek, seek and we shall find, find and we shall together see
The love we both have within us is just dying to be set free
Copyright © Sandy Schermerhorn | Year Posted 2009
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Standing there that day
I missed him the instant he pulled away
The night before so incredible so that there was nothing left to say
I find myself constantly re-living that night with him
It felt so natural, so right, with no reservations of sin
And when my mind wonders back to those moments, I can’t help but smile
My heart skips a beat and it somehow makes my being worth while
I remember every little intimate detail
The smell of his skin, the way he passionately kissed me with fail
The way he held me so tight
And the way he would tug my hair ever so slightly to kiss my bared neck just right
The sounds he made while he slept deeply into the night
To the laughing and talking, and the nails digging in each others skin
Followed with willing nibbles and tingling bites
To me, he’s my world, my one and only
We should forever be together instead of being so lonely
Hopefully soon this will finally come to pass
And be with each other at long last
Then I can live within my future and not be stuck within my own past
Let the memories then lay where they should only to once and awhile be recalled
And then create more moments and memories side by side
Holding him, being played by his hands while I knowingly abide
With never again to worry of having my heart once again fall
But no one for me needs to for now worry
Because I went into this with my eyes wide open full of color and nothing at all is blurry
So even if my heart was to again break
And my soul be again tattered
I will not forsake
And it will not, in the end, matter
Because I know that I followed my heart
Knowing with each and every step, it could completely be shattered
And torn wholly apart
Copyright © Sandy Schermerhorn | Year Posted 2009
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