Best Poems Written by Muskan Aamir

Melt

All these moments that should bring happiness, 
bring me sadness 
i keep asking myself 
if I'm depressed 
I keep telling myself 
I'm not depressed 
I'm looking in the mirror, and I'm not that impressed 
I'm sitting in the same place I was a year ago. 
I haven't moved a bit. 
Tears keep falling, 
im broken, I'm heartless, I'm such a mess 
i don't know how to say it out loud.. 
i don't really like talking in front of big crowds. 
im trying to make my parents proud 
it just never works out. 
Feels like these days I don't have a god, 
im hanging this rope up on the rod, 
seconds away from hanging myself, I feel like I'm gonna melt 
I feel a way I never felt. 
Im just trying to save myself 
I don't wanna melt. 
Im so cold, so cold, 
they say "you're so cold hearted" 
they keep trying to make me melt 
taking me out my comfort zone 
I feel a way I never felt. 
thinking of new ways to work it out 
my thoughts say "use a belt" 
those who don't and even those who do know me 
probably think I'm suicidal 
and to that I laugh 
I laugh at all of you 
because you want to be understood 
but you never try to understand 
you just hold my hand 
and tell me you do.

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