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Jason Wall Poem
All the words and truth I spoke was cause I was trying to bring hope to you. It was never to play games. Yet, a game has started. I can see all the impossible truths from deep inside of you. That could fall like rain dropping or like the morning dew, Just coming over me and you.
You have that something about you. That something that screamed out loud to me, and will not let my mind just be. It calls out I will destroy you like your no body.
That right there intrigues me so. I have to see if it was your soul calling out to me. As I dream of far of places, or is it the universe threating me with darkness that i can not have.
For you see I am not scared of pain, I am scared of the plain, the normal everyday, the just same old same.
I want and need the wildfires burning all around and to be standing on scorched ground. Picking embers from our feet cause god damnit you ignite me. Not because of your pretty face, But because what you feel and say to me. But then at the same you only barely know my name.
Copyright © Jason Wall | Year Posted 2017
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The truth of the matter is that the situation is not ideal and the timing is way off, but never the less I am trying to pick myself up from the fall I have taken for you. Like tumbling down a flight of stairs or like losing footing on a cliff, my heart races and my body trembled at the sight of your smile and the shine in your eyes as you look completely through me, like I am a imaginary figment of my own imagination. And you see right through me like air. But your every word and the sound if your voice I cling to like life support as my breathe is drawn short and my body trembled as you are close. My thoughts are of us and of you but silence is all I can muster. For you are taken by another. And I am no longer that guy who just takes what he wants even though I despertly crave your embrace and know the wild craziness that would ignite from such an act of pure raw passion would create a moment in time that would rival any other in the history of man. Yet in the time I have crafted something witty and clever to create an opportunity to speak to your soul the way yours calls to mine. You have passed by and my chance of a serious encounter with my future has passed. Wounded by the fact you are taken by someone that does not cherish and appreciate the true value your heart and soul have to offer breaks me. And I am left wishing for just a chance or perhaps a reason to brush by you and feel the electricity between us recharge my outlook on the sad darkness I was in until my eyes were brightened by you light. How can I feel so lost and so confused yet so certain all at the same time. This unspoken truth that is rolling around inside of me please tell me you feel it as well?
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Once in a great while your soul stands up and takes notice of someone and your inner voice screams yes that one. So loud your sure others heard.
When you are apart you can feel your soul weeping and full of sorrow.
There is a fight over who should take the lead, your head or your heart and your soul tried to mediate.
Your voice shakes like fall leaves being blow away in a storm. And your body follows suit every time she is near.
Its hard when you can see the future and feel the magic and yiur just in awe of the person you have stumbled acrossed with your dumb luck. You have to try and hold it back but you wear your heart on your sleeve. The problem with being open and honest you sometimes goof and let out the secrets of your heart.
Trying to hide the words that describe your feels, is like having them all tattooed on your tongue and biting them and choking them back for fear it will cost you the thing you would sale your very soul to have, but that's not an option cause your soul has deemed it property of her's where it barely listens you you anymore it is consumed like timber in a wildfire.
Lost in daydreams, watching, listening craving what you can see is so vivid your heart races knees become weak and your lost in translation of what you think the worst four letter word is. i
It scares you to think Love can be so intense and not evil as one would have you believe. The word love has never had so much meaning to it or behind it. And you finally understand caring so much for someone that you would break your own heart just to see them smile.
You finally understand what you thought was real in the past was not even close to the potent mess you find your self wrapped up in now. The confusion and practicality switch back and forth up becomes down yes switches with no and your world is spinning counter clockwise.
The words to express the jibbberish you hear in your head that make sense at the briefest monents fail you. you turn into a cave man barely able to make sounds because the nerves are so raw. You try to sound smart, sexy and put together the words to touch her heart but it just ends up sounding like you have tourette's. Embarrass yourself and have to try and explain that you are scared amd intimidated because the feelings you have have never been so real.
The beauty in her eyes, the way she looks at you like you are the only man in the world and makes you feel special in a good way. There is a light that shines from her that is brighter then an open flame and hotter then the sun. She makes you feel like a shooting star flying across the night sky rare and seen tugly seen as magical. She has filled a void of emptiness you have felt before. Just hearing her voice say your name melts your heart like ice cream on a summer day. You struggle to focus, losing sleep forgetting to eat.
Wanting to stop and smell the roses not concerned with the thorns to the point you don't notice the bright red stream dripping from your clenched hand as you smell the sweet aroma.
The grasps this woman has on your heart, your soul, is unlike any embrace you have felt before and you open your eyes and the reality of the realistic world shows you the fantasy you have dreamed of is a challenge you wont back down from, any heartache or pain is worth the overall pay off that your heart has seen into come. All the things you would endure. All the hurdles and moats and walls and draw bridges, dragons and monsters you would go through just to stand in front of the light that shines from her soul. Its like she is the light house guiding you into safe harbor during the storm as your ship is taking on water. You known the dangers of being lost at sea adrift and alone.there is always risk but also reward.
Craving the warmth of that light you can see so clearly. Like an angel send from the heavens above you have been given a chance to prove the power of one mans love and devotion and the loyalty, honesty and respect.
Proving your words and actions are on the straight narrow. like an arrow being on target and Cupid's shot was true. Hitting this guy so hard I have fallen into the deepend of the pool with lead weights dragging me to the bottom. Faith and my undying will to be apart of something amazing and full of magical surprises to come.
I'm not anything special but I can say no matter what this man has to endure to be lucky enough to hold your hand in the darkness of the night and just surrounded by moonlight. You are the moon and stars, you are the love in my sky the way you shine, your love lights up my life
Copyright © Jason Wall | Year Posted 2018
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I wish to hear your thoughts in the silence while just being quiet. suffocating the vocal cords from making a sound in which speaks volumes to the deaf ear.
Hearing nothing but a heartbeat as we lay next to one another wrapped and tangled in a pile upon the bed. Knowing your every move your every whimper with out breaking the silence that has become the norm.
As you pull away and our bodies become separate, you sneak from my sight, yet I can still feel your warmth and your passion.
No matter the distance or length of time your soul is connected to mine.
I awake from vivid dreams where you reach out to me, bringing back memories.
You are not alone burns in my heart. All the love and laughter we shared only an echo away stuck, even til this day.
You haunt my dreams and break me down. I know that is not real, but wanting, needing and craving you in the silence once again. Our connected deeper then you will ever admit. For we have shared our souls, became one and now I just search for you.
I lay in the quiet, still as can be wishing and hoping you will scream out for me. Never have I wished or hurt for something so untrue more then my love for you. A love that once would never stray tied like a knot that holds shoes place.
In my heart pieces of you burn through all the time like scars that are only mine. Forming i tears I can not cry.
Like the flash of a camera or the stike of lighting. My soul burns to hold you one last time.
We ended so quickly and so abrupt, I lost my soul in the murky muck.
Its like looking at an empty cup that once over flowed with the power of you. holding memories close and true.
You now held by someone who is not me, crashing down my world must be.
Wanting to wake from the sleep. its so bittersweet because I still feel you everytine I dream.
Your smile, your kiss fills the hurt in my heart. Knowing that we are still just so damn far apart. Yet only miles keep us away. I wish for just one more day. To look into your very soul and see the woman I use to know.
I am lost in a darkness that you became when you took your burning flame. whats left if me?
I search for the fire of my lost love. Finding no candle can burn as bright as the magic when you held me tight. Lost am I looking for the way out. Always quiet no reason to shout. I miss you everyday, my life is the saddest play. That leaves others in torment but it is mine until the end. Wish you the best even if it not with me. Just promise.... You'll remember how I use to be.
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As I stand alone, like all the days before. I realize how alone I truly am. I sit in silence.. I sleep in silence... I think in silence. I want to be loud I want to feel and know and talk. But there is no one around. No one has the time to stop and listen. They all have their own noise going on. So much like the silence I disappear. Like a breath on a cold night, or like the morning dew. Insignificant, and waste of time to give more then a moments thought to.
The silence is what keeps me quiet and the silence is what keeps me alone. Because in the silence, I hear every reason no one will fall for me, No one would care or even notice if I made noise. So the only noise I make is in silence and all in my head while my heart just wants to scream PAY ATTENTION but is eaten by fear. The silence has me convinced to stay silent, and just disappear. Like the darkness when you close your eyes, no one sees all the truthful lies."
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Like all the honest truths and make believe lies.
Barren land scorched by a flame that craves more fuel and room to grow.
A flash of lighting acrossed the sky jagged and course as it flies.
The loud ring of thunder like a hammer striking an anvil, molding metal at will.
Like the waves beating against the sand, as it rolls from the deep blue sea.
You have caused a disaster deep within me.
Choas and damage, flooding, running wild upon my heart. With just a look from you. You have reached my cold heart, tearing down all my dark hidden parts and you are cause butterflies floating around to my suprise. Its like a cat has stolen my tongue stopping the words that so often come like a rushing waterfall from my mouth, which has now fallen silent as death as it creeps in the shadows.
The pain of you, I do not fear, the havoc that will ensue when our souls stop being two.
Nothing will really change because I can't even speak your name, I just stand there terrified as you slip away.
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Lost souls crying out in the darkness for the slightest warmth from another's touch. An embrace like a flame, scorching the skin with the lustful burn of the night. Never letting the light to be extinguished, By those who would deny the beauty of its flickering flame.
Holding hope for the home in someone. that was built in the chaos of the unknown. Watching the shadows contrast to the light moving around like the wind of the cold winters night. Holding on to the things you said like a treasure hidden away in my head. Wishing I could whisper all my secrets in your ear without judgement or fear. Problem is you are not here. I am alone hiding with the forgotten shadows on the wall. Realizing my heart is not mine at all.
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Seeing you walk away is burned into me. I see it everyday. You were so much more then you ever realized. My heart my soul every breath all of it was for you. The emptiness draws me down. Sinking my soul like a ship to the bottom of the deep waiting to be found. You are no where around.
Your smile your laugh, hell you still haunt my dreams. I wake up more lost as impossible as it seems.
You filled me with love with light and then just like that you closed up shop, flipped off the lights and then Darkness is all around. The coldness filled the ground. I can hear the shovels running dirt down, but all the laughter and the love just stopped right there.
Now all I see is images of you in my dreams, a lost love who still haunts my soul sadly ripped in two, and half is with you.
If giving up everything and selling my soul just to have you or to be rid of your control. I would do so. But yet you still have control and I still feel your sadness and your joy i can't stop that no matter how hard i try.
You said you dream of me and that I die, I think I can tell you exactly why....
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Like a wildfire burning everything indescribably just taking advantage of the winds and the changing path of destruction. Never can it be to far gone. Never can it be real and so broken down to the roots covered in ash of the dying life that's floating through the air. And settling like a thick smog on the history of us. That was so unfinished and so unwritten.
The strokes of the pen flashing and flickering in basted anger to complete a fairy tale of love and lies, to break down the walls I have begun to build. My heart has been yours without adultery and delay, you just choose to fill my head with the lies of a silver tongue rather then feel my heart beat near yours.
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Listening to your words, feeling your breath. Having you near, Drives me crazy. I have to get away, I have to say no today.
My heart begs me to stay and feel your lies wash over me like waves hitting the same. Nothing more then pain will come from the pleasure of your love.
As I fight and try to leave you beg me to stay with every whisper, You fill my head with wants of you, I crave your touch and ache to feel your embrace and to have twisted up with in my soul.
The aching thought of the sunrise as you will tear away and rip me in two, but for now I am your muse. I am yours to use to heal your self, take me break me. Once again and leave me in the shadows walking to the gallows to hang my pain away.
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