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Charlene Solitario Poem
Have you ever tried at something
And failed
Have you ever not tried at something
And really prevailed
Have you ever not listened
When listening was a must
Have you ever been all ears
When the conversation was all gossip
Have you ever ran
When you should have walked
Have you ever been quiet
When you should have talked
Have you ever laughed
When you should have cried
Have you ever given up
When you really should have tried
Have you ever sat
When you should have stood
Have you ever been bad
When you should have been good
Have you ever been alone
When you should have been with another
Have you ever criticized
When you should have complimented your brother
Have you ever said something
And wished you could take it back
Have you ever listened to rumors
And did not realize they were not a fact
Have you ever left
When you should have stayed
Have you ever been lazy
When you should have prayed
Have you ever tried to prove you were right
When you knew you were wrong
Have you ever been weak
When you should have been strong
Have you ever needed a friend
And no one was there
Have you ever not been a friend
When someone needed you to listen
While their problems they shared
Have you ever been funny
When you should have been serious
Have you ever been predictable
When you should have been mysterious
Stop and think
We have all been there at some time or another
And we have all experienced
“have –you-ever”
By: charlene solitario
March 1998
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Mother and son
After forty years
A new life
They have begun
They were apart
For so many years
It was impossible
To count and keep track
Of all the tears
It all started
When he was six years old
There were no schools for his kind
They were told
They searched and searched
And finally found
A place that would accept him
But it was far away
In another town
The sad day finally arrived
His father was ill and could not drive
His brother drove the car
His mother and sister
Traveled along with the small lad
To the new place afar
What they had to do
Was not
A pleasant thought to think
Out of this cup
They wished
They did not have to drink
They realized the time
Was drawing near
They would leave this precious child
In the hands of strangers
Which, he would no doubt fear
This would not only be a school
To train his fragile mind
But would also be his home
For an indefinite period of time
They finally reached their destination
They entered the new world
With great anxiety
And heart felt anticipation
The thought occurred to them
To turn and run
But they realized
They must finish
What they had begun
After the questions were answered
After all the papers were signed
It was time for them to go
And leave the little one behind
They turned to walk away
With tears running down each ones face
As the child screamed
‘mommy don’t leave me in this place!”
Not a word was spoken
On their way home
Each was dealing with this
On their own
He stayed at that home
Until he was eight
Then he moved closer to his mom and dad
Which was great
At the age of ten
His dad passed away
That left his mom alone
To make sure he was taken care of
And that he would be okay
He moved one more time
To a state facility
This would be the last
The next will be
A home in the community
This would be his family
Which he really never had
To share his good times
Along with the bad
Words cannot express the guilt
His mother must have felt
Because her child she had not kept
She did the best that she could do
And no one – but no one
Judges her wrong or untrue
Everyone knew she loved him
With all her heart
And cursed the day they had to part
He is older now and so is she
It is now time for her
To be placed in a state facility
She feels it is payback time
For sending him away
Now….
In this awful place
She will have to stay
Her mind is sharp
Her will is strong
She will not give up
Until he is gone
She prays the day will come
When they can be together
And she can make up for the wrong
She feels she has done
I am that sister
That made the long trip
That dreadful day
I now take care of these two precious people
And found them a better place to stay
The day is finally here
Forty years later
Mother and son
Are again together
She has survived death
Many times in the past
Living for this moment
Reunited at last
She wants to make up for all
The time they were apart
And become the mother
She feels she never was
And make a new start
They are now living together
In a place of their own
With assistance from others
They finally have a new home
They are living each moment
As if life has just begun
Finally reunited after forty years
Mother and son
So much laughter and so many tears
So much has happened in the last 10 years
Just seems that time has flown by
And now it is time for the
Big….
Reunion in the sky
Daddy went home to be with jesus
Almost 47 years ago
Then sonny then mama and then last
Was betty jo
No more suffering and no more pain
Gordon will be with jesus
And….see mama and daddy again
With open arms and joyous hearts
Betty and sonny will be there too
To welcome gordon home
With his mind and body ‘all new’
Gordon, you gave us much joy and happiness
While you were hear on earth
Now you can enjoy life abundant
And receive your rewards
For all you’re worth
Let our hearts not be sad
For you leaving us
But be happy for you
For you are now perfect
And….best of all
You are with jesus
Let us live our lives the best we can
And know
We will someday see jesus too
….and gordon again
In life we loved you
In death we grieve
We will see you again
This, we truly believe
Thank you gordon
For all the lives you touched
And
God bless you…and reward you much
By:charlene solitario
Bd july 1997
Ad july 2008
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Addiction is a sickness
Denial is a weakness
Addiction of any kind
Is horrible
And torments the mind
I believe he loves me
I believe he truly does
But the sickness inside of him
Has more control of him
Than the one he loves
In the beginning love was so strong
I did not realize something was wrong
But as time passed by
And we seemed to grow apart
I started to realize….
The lies that were told
The promises that were broken
And never to be
I knew then there was something
More, bothering me
I would cry and cry
And try to figure things out
My mind would be filled
With assumptions and doubt
I even thought
There was another woman
Which made me feel
Unloved and unwanted
I did not know that something
Inside someone, could
Have so much control
That it could cause them
To treat the ones
They love so much, so cold
Competition with addiction
Is hard to understand
And only a woman who loves so much,
Will stand by her man
But, there comes a time
When…..
You have to give up
And let the addiction win
I loved him so much
And i still do
But to compete with addiction,
I realized the only way to survive
Was to do what i had to
I had to leave behind a man
That was so good and so kind
But had a sickness
That controlled his soul and his mind
I was in competition with this
Awful addiction
And my love for him was so strong
That i constantly reminded
Him he was doing wrong
It makes me sad he let me go so easily
But then i realized
The sickness inside of him
Made him believe
The only way 'he' could survive
Was to be rid of me
I loved him so much
And i still do
I would go back in a moment
If i knew the sickness inside of him
Was gone and he would be true
If the lies would stop
And the denial was conquered
And our life could be
Filled with love and honor
By: charlene soliario
July 1997
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I saw a small child in a department store
Playing in the aisle
He was running here and there
His parents were close by
But they appeared not to care
After all the shopping was done
They realized
They could not find their son
They were stunned and both started to shake
The fear that came over them was almost
More than they could take
They blamed each other
For the neglect of this small child
They started to argue
As they searched up and down the aisle
Tears were streaming down mom and dad’s face
Fearing their child was no where in this place
After a few moments of searching
Which seemed to them like eternity
Their arguing began to quieten
And they both realized
Finding their son was utmost priority
As they searched and searched
And called his name
They thought about the
Many other parents
Who had done the same
As their hearts began to pound
It suddenly occurred to them
Some of these parents
Their child they never found
This made them more determined than before
As they searched with all their might
They would find their son
And next time they were shopping
They would not let him out of sight
As it got later
And the crowd began to fade
They knew it was almost closing time
And all hopes of finding their son
Was slipping away
As they were almost ready to give up
They heard a small boy cry
“mommy daddy come see what i found
And want you to buy”
They both ran toward the sound
And on an oversized toy fire truck
Their son they found
They smiled as they ran toward him
With arms opened wide
The joy they felt in their hearts
They could not hide
As they finally reached their little one
The last call for closing time
Came over the intercom
They grabbed the little boy
And both began to cry
The lad was terrified
Not understanding why
Their son began to scream, mommy daddy
What is wrong are you alright
At that moment his mommy jumped up
And realized it was the middle of the night
She still heard her son screaming
“mommy daddy”
She jumped up quickly
And ran to him
At that moment she realized
He was having a night mare
And so had she
She hugged her son so tight
And thanked god
It was only a nightmare that night
She sang him a lullaby and told
Him everything will be alright
As she sang to her son
She promised herself and god
She would never again let him
Out of sight
By: charlene solitario
October 1998
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THINGS IN LIFE ARE SOMETIME HARD TO UNDERSTAND
LIFE IS SIMPLE AT TIMES
AND SOMETIME IT IS SUCH A DEMAND
I KNOW I HAVE TO SHARE ALL I HAVE
AS SOME POINT IN TIME, BUT….
I DO KNOW THAT THE THOUGHTS I HAVE
ARE ALL MINE
THESE THOUGHTS ARE MINE TO SHARE
IF I DECIDE I MUST, BUT…..
ONLY THEN DO I DARE TO SHARE
WITH SOMEONE I TRUST
BY:CHARLENE SOLITARIO
OCTOBER 2003
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