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Competition With Addiction

Addiction is a sickness
Denial is a weakness
Addiction of any kind
Is horrible
And torments the mind

I believe he loves me
I believe he truly does
But the sickness inside of him
Has more control of him
Than the one he loves

In the beginning love was so strong
I did not realize something was wrong
But as time passed by
And we seemed to grow apart
I started to realize….

The lies that were told
The promises that were broken
And never to be
I knew then there was something
More, bothering me

I would cry and cry
And try to figure things out
My mind would be filled
With assumptions and doubt

I even thought
There was another woman
Which made me feel
Unloved and unwanted

I did not know that something
Inside someone, could
Have so much control
That it could cause them
To treat the ones
They love so much, so cold

Competition with addiction
Is hard to understand
And only a woman who loves so much,
Will stand by her man

But, there comes a time
When…..
You have to give up
And let the addiction win

I loved him so much
And i still do
But to compete with addiction,
I realized the only way to survive
Was to do what i had to

I had to leave behind a man
That was so good and so kind
But had a sickness
That controlled his soul and his mind

I was in competition with this
Awful addiction
And my love for him was so strong
That i constantly reminded
Him he was doing wrong

It makes me sad he let me go so easily
But then i realized
The sickness inside of him
Made him believe
The only way 'he' could survive
Was to be rid of me

I loved him so much
And i still do
I would go back in a moment
If i knew the sickness inside of him
Was gone and he would be true

If the lies would stop
And the denial was conquered
And our life could be
Filled with love and honor

By: charlene soliario

July 1997

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