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Hiding Behind the Silence

What do we have but change?
I only shine when I feel it's all coming to an end.
And then it ends.
You left me.
Or did I leave you?
I learned that I was born at a higher vibration.
I don't know how much longer this can destroy me and uplift me at the same time.
I fall in love so easily, and feel I will never relieve myself of this pain.
It scares me. Everything. This life. Love.
My perceived delusions never cease to leave me numb. 
Am I crazy?
I will never know.
I felt like I would die the other day.
Was it the drugs? A spiritual epiphany?
It was like a fear of death was the only thing that kept me alive.
I want you back. I always will.
Is the world really watching me?
Am I spinning things out of control? Are we all?
I am sorry. I always was and always will be.
I am not god. Though a higher power is within me.
I have so much fear of everything...I fear the light within me.
I give this to you.
What will free us?
Pain and suffering... Are they in our heads?
Pain overtakes me....physically, mentally, emotionally.
I find order in the smallest moments but they slip away.
Disorderly schizophrenia runs through my mind...
Or is that yet another label of an enlightenment?
How did they know? How does anyone know anything?
Is it love?
I feel everyone by my side yet no one at the same time. 
How could that be?
I know I may never get enough off of my chest.
Too long I was numbed out... prevented from reaching my higher vibration.
Am I crazy?
A few people I know will never wonder.
My own parents sucking so much from me and not even knowing.
I let them. I perceive it that way and destroy myself.
The tears keep me sane.
I know I was at the edge of this universe.
I know.
My knowledge is boiling up in my brain, disconnecting me from everyone.
I seek to connect completely to someone but failed...?
Will I find that one person?
I am so tired.
What will become of me?
Crazy.
I label myself.
You broke me. I let you.
I found a light within me. It was way too bright.
Then I embraced you and I felt complete.
Am I crazy?
I don't want people to know my pain.
But I want to share everything with you.
I love you.
I always will.
I can't begin to imagine what brought me to this place.
I can't begin to grasp at this situation.
My heart breaks.
And breaks.
Nothing in this world but you.
Are you okay?
Have you become lost in the mess?
I love you. I miss u.

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Year After Year

How did I get here?
Year after year
Lead to this
This day full of fear
Fear that I won't say the right things at the funeral
No
Fear that I won't have the right pictures
How crazy
Wasting time in the present to focus on the funeral
I hate it
My computer holds everything but its disorganized
My mind feels disorganized enough already
Oh well
Technology, I hope you can shape things up
past and present
Mostly future
Regret or resent?
Pictures everywhere
Will I find the right ones?
"Every occasion I'll be ready for the funeral"
Again,
How did I get here?
Year after year
Lead to this day of fear.

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Falling Apart

How am I falling apart?
Did I abuse my own heart?
abuse my own?
What is my art?
Push the start
Push mom's shopping cart.
My past is a blur
It seems almost absurd
How beautiful my childhood was
In contrast to the dreadful feeling
of the present abuzz. about. surrounding.
I want to step out of this vicious ring.
I want to sing a new song
I hope it doesn't take too long
till I can sing my new song.

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Shady Love

When I saw your face,
I thought you would be my biggest grace.
When I heard your voice
I thought you would be my greatest choice.
When I felt your kiss,
I thought you would be my love, to love like this...

But when I read the words of your soul,
I knew you were the biggest fool.
And when I saw your ass,
I knew you were my greatest to pass.

But when I felt your loss,
I knew you would be the frost
On my heart 
To be melted away slowly, day by day, in the sun, where we are far apart

Far away, somedays 
Are better
Some are worse, of course

I wanna let go
But I still want you and the snow
I just don't and won't go
To have my life and my love be a blow
Of smoke in my face
Only a trace
Of what existed in my head

All those lonely nights in my bed
You would never really be
The shady love I tried to hold; to be free
Is the only joy you needed
The trees in our throat 
Blocked the words never spoke

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Bending Flowers

The flowers blossomed on the 1st of May.
It was a beautiful day 
to write a story but the flowers sucked up attention with all their glory.
Nevermind that, the author lost ability to write,
Did something evil happen overnight?
The flowers, if seen as a sign, said no
Something glorious happened.
I'd like to ask the flowers,
When does my suffering end?
But alas, even flowers bend.

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Broken

I am officially broken.
Of heart and of mind.
Your love was mine but I lost your token.
The key to love you, and I cannot find.
You are so shady so lost so gone.
The dark is all is left, I lost you, no more time.
Run run run away and away cuz it's done.
My mind and my heart are broke can't even be brung
to sit up 

Why, why is this my fate
where was our date
where was the time
where is the rhyme?

I hate it all of it
Want so bad to be done with it
But I can't control my brain
it is f-ing insane
you. you are crazy
I. I'm always hazy
in a haze of nothing now
nothing to speak of 
never again
but always trapped in this whole of my life
holed in 
buried 
away to stay 
eating away at everything I am 
forever and ever

I remember

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Speaking

What irony that im going deeper in a dungeon to find Kaos in Fate
But It’s the opposite of what im trying to do in my real life, it’s great
I love things that work out like that
My life is all these things that make me round and flat

When were things the best?
When on the ground my head did rest
In a tent of my making 
Alone, nature for the taking

Those 16 days never lost 
Maybe I learned something I should haven’t 
Something with a cost
Which is to know that I’m locked out of that heaven (?)

Living in paradise 
With bugs and water keeping me up at night was really kinda nice
See reality out there is better than disturbing disconnection in the hyper-connected, uncentered, failing, tech diseased world 
(Or im just feeling bitter, bored, and cold)

Now worries and screens keep me awake
No sky when I look up
Unnatural buzzes and beeps
Kinda just gives me the creeps
Instead of breathing air and chilling
I go to the kitchen to find another pill for popping
Not really cool or helpful to jump around my room and shake
But out there it was healing and well, that’s what sup.

My hero’s are Maya Angelou and Joni Mitchell
“When you know better, you do better” says Angelou
-I pray for the education of zombies that kill
-May humans live by this too, to help us out of our mental zoo
“I’ve looked at life from both sides now. From up and down and still somehow, it’s life’s illusions I recall. I really don’t know life at all.” -Joni -I love you

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Bottled Up Pain

I try to make all of the pain poetic
Try to ignore how I was abused by a prick
So many ways
So many days
More times than I can mention
I want to put down my chin
Fall off like the leaves
To the next life and reprieve
This life’s karma
How can I practice dharma
With all this anger inside me
I can’t take out, trying to fight me
Because it’s in my head
Sick of you but I can’t get you out, turning red

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The Ickiest

Uneasy thoughts creep out of the sewer
Snarling muscle bound balls that suck the good parts of your soul 
like black holes
(What am I tripping on)
Snakes creep out of my brain, down my neck and spine
Tying me up in vines
I try to pull away but no matter what they stay 
Like a virus 
Easy to forget but never rid of
I fight to keep them at bay
To my dismay
The fight will NEVER end
A worthy fight and I’ve got time to spend
On hacking away 
Spirit tucked away 
With light to expand out and save the day
But demons in disguise pour acid over 
Feel like I need a four leaf clover

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Maybe It Is Nonsense

My thoughts seek companionship in substance
Substance of the five senses, yes 
But mostly of conscience

Isn’t it torture to go on and on, days across
Pasting social norms over truth
Constantly barely pulling order out of chaos

Can we be serious and real
Or is it just me, or circumstance
To want to not try to feel
Fake

I witness so many shallow laughs
Thinking, save your breath, what’s so funny
Your miraculous brain isn’t such a dummy

I struggle to gasp
When the situation calls for it 
but really I’m stronger and would need more of a rasp

Don’t want to seem numbed and awkward
But lately thinking it’s okay, even Zen
To not have to be another clucking hen,
 trying for the “don’t ruffle my feathers” award