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Tom Evje Poem
I always thought that we'd be together united as one for all eternity forever hand in hand soulmates, soaring in the see through the heavens, feeling the gentle warm kiss of the Sun on our faces and the cool soothing caress of the moon on our backs
at peace and in love
one day without warning are sky suddenly darkened its hue and electricity filled the air
lightning and thunder stormed there menacing selfs through our once peaceful skies and from nowhere it came
a single bolt of lightning White Lightning that was to become the catalyst of our fate
it struck us apart, wounding ever so deeply, not only our souls but splitting or entwined hearts in two
in the pain and confusion our hands are separated
and like inexperienced lovers we reached out for each other with no light to guide us
my hands frantic, afraid and desperate for yours
Your hands? I felt them ever so briefly like feathers as your fingertips brushed mine
hoping to find what we sought searching anxiously for a hold instead there was nothing to grasp accept the dark still air
all we wanted was to be as we were but this was not meant to be
Oh My Love all the gods in the heavens heard my anguish and pain filled screams as a plummeted to the cold dark planet below alone
startled and frightened by the visit illusions haunting my dreams I sometime later awoke
opening my eyes ready to confront this unknown yet I could not see without the strength of your love I was simply blinded
searching you out I crawled in my misery across infinite measures of that cursed barren dirt
time truly had stopped for me now A mere second seemed to last forever and I am quite certain that all time since the creation passed me by with every move I made all that seemed to make my heart continue to beat in its torn and ravaged state was my deep aching need for you but what was left of my being after that cruel and uninvited storm was merely a shell of all that you loved
only you have the power to heal me to make me whole again I must find you I must keep moving forward however lonely and painful the strife maybe for we must be together once again as one, for that is how we are destined to be, soaring endlessly through the heavens soulmates hand in hand. The Sun kissing our faces in the moon caressing our backs
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I have been burned by the guilt of my own ghost for so long. As I finally gave up and look to the heavens for help my life was transformed. For as I looked up to God he began to make me look within myself. Inside I found a lot of pain that I've been running from my whole life. Now I understand that the pain has been a summons from my soul to see what was really going on and a demand for action. Then at the moment of greatest despair, when I thought all was lost, Jesus came beside me and with him I broke through the pain instead of breaking down. I have learned that we are healed of a suffering only by experiencing it to the fullest. We can spend a lifetime trying to hide from it, but it wasn't until I expose my pain and gave it up to heaven that I learn to my surprise God can enter us through our wounds. He is greatest through our weaknesses come no one is exempt. No one can escape, some event, some unseen truth, some simple twist of fate brings each one of us face to face with our own private horror. Some of us break and then some of us see the other side. It is at these times that our resources, inner and outer, are pushed beyond foreseeable limits. It is that these times of hitting rock bottom that we are giving a test we can't endure alone. It was here that I was given the direct experience of a power greater than myself. I now know God sends patient angels to appear from the darkened corners of this world we live in. I promise you that prayer screamed from the soul are answered in miracles of the heart. It is through forgiveness that wounds are healed and the awful burden of the past his cast off your shoulders for good. When we cease blaming circumstances, we begin to live responsibly. When we feast blaming our faith for where we are, we become free to embrace life and begin to learn of the gifts and blessings waiting for each of God's children. We have traveled in the dark for a long time. Yet we can blossom even there, with faith and the like to come which is Jesus Christ. As the shadows yield to the light, we can learn that grace happens. We can be carried by grace to a new way of seeing and being. Then we can be confident that on the perilous road to our home eternal, we can live in that grace. We also know that the awareness of grace is a gift that must be acknowledged daily and grows when shared. Never forget that once you allow Jesus into your heart we are not alone anymore. We are empowered and going home gracefully. It is in simply learning to live each day under God's grace that we are enlightened and transformed in ways we never dreamed possible. By this empowerment of the Spirit of God as we give Jesus control over our lives there is integrity, trust, joy, confidence, unity, generosity, forgiveness, compassion, harmony, stability, and of course grace. And these are just the beginning!
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So you may have caught a glimpse of me with your eyes but I can guarantee you have never really seen me, you might have even felt me once or twice with your hands but you have never truly touched me, you think you know the sound of my voice but you have never taken the time to listen to me, you might have certain feelings inside but I refuse to let myself believe that you love me, maybe you have learned a thing or two from me but some things in this life can't be taught, you may have gotten me a few things from time to time but now you know some people can't be bought, you may think you are solid but it seems transparency is your biggest sickness, maybe you can read but I doubt your mind can begin to comprehend this, you try to act cool but deep down your whole world is shaking, when you lie to yourself every single time you leave your soul for the taking, you always say your fine but pain always recognizes pain, on me you try to place the blame but game always recognizes game. Try to run and hide but in the end there will be no place to go, whatever it is you fear the most avoidance will make it grow, you try to walk a higher path but always end up lost, you took a gamble and bet it all but now you know the cost, Change is sacrifice and the bigger the transformation the more you have to give, either give up now and die or make the conscious decision to live. To achieve your brightest tomorrow you must first command the present, you have to take a close look at your darker side and that is never pleasant. The flip side was never promised and the future may not come at all, and if you ever really want to know what you're made of you have to fall. Identity of self can't be known when life is going good, taking the chances to expose yourself is the only way to be understood. Go ahead and keep telling your lies because its yourself you are trying to convince, I know these things because I've lived it, and suffered ever since. So do what you will with these words of mine and I truely hope they may somehow teach you, just know I have been there too and this is why I hope I can somehow reach you!
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There is a certain time and a certain place,
A certain smile on a certain face,
That can make me feel alive
Sometimes I wonder just what would have been
If I could just somehow go back and turn now into then
Every once and awhile when I close my eyes the truth becomes clear as I shed a tear and slowly realize
There's not much in this world that I haven't gone and done all wrong
Please shine your light back into my life because without you, it's been dark for so long
As I sit here and remember everything that once was, I find it hard to begin everything I need to say
Because I still hear your voice in the night and even all the drugs in the world couldn't make the memories of you begin to fade away
So take a look in my eyes, and threw them into my soul and see
That when I'm with you there is a lot less wrong with me
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It seems every time I begin to let the light out that hides inside of me
The world breaks me down and reminds me this some things are meant to be
But now things have changed because I no longer allow the world to rule my soul
I now walk a higher path and thanks to Jesus Christ my Savior I've been made whole
It's crazy how all the pain of a lifetime can come together in the end to make you so strong
I had to hold fast as I cried out to God and stood on his promises to write the wrong
There's no point any longer for me to always try to run and hide
The scars I bear tell the story of all the pain of carried deep inside
So no more secrets because the time has come for me to begin to share at all
As a somehow try to expose all the lies I believed and allowed them to lead to my fall
I don't know if there will ever be a point where the end justifies the means
I'm just trying to show you that with God things end up so much better than it seems
Even though it's only a flicker there's still a light in me that won't burn out
As time goes by the rage inside from a lifetime wasted begins to force my whisper into a shout
So sit back and soak up these words as my story slowly begins to unfold
What you are beginning to hear is truth no lies all the things everybody else left untold
For too long now we have been too proud and tried to walk in our own ways
But each of us are God's creation put on this earth and programed to give God praise
To refuse this calling from the Lord is the same as trying to breathe when there is no air
Can a newborn baby protect itself and decide to live without his mother's care?
Why do we continue to ignore the signs that are always right here in front of our face
Everything from a small flower to the stars in the sky tell us of God's power and grace
How is it that so many of us continue to do the same things the same ways and expect to change the results
We find it so easy to walk around placing blame everywhere else refusing to take a look at our own faults
It wasn't until I humbled myself and bowed down before the Lord that He gave me the strength to stand
Now all the things in life that keep me down I can begin to let go of and place in his hand
I speak these words inspired from God to maybe save you all the time I carelessly wasted
Maybe spare you some of the pain and hate and all the bitter tears that I've tasted
I know from experience once you allow God into your life there can only be one outcome
Love and peace flow into your soul no matter who you are where you come from
I know what it's like to live life lost and alone stained by the guilt of sin
But cry out to Jesus with tears from the soul and his spirit will cleanse you from within
I speak to you not as someone fed from a golden spoon who has never left the church benches
I reach out to you for my own dark places a fellow brother with wounds fresh from Satan's trenches
So just know that if God's grace was strong enough to reach down and somehow save someone like me
There is nothing you have ever said or done that can keep God from also setting you free
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how do I say goodbye to you when we never really said hello
is it any easier to walk away from the seeds of a friendship never given time to root and grow
grow into what, a bigger friendship? I don't know
and how is it possible to miss someone I hardly ever see
how can I know if you are my hero when you rode into the sunset long before the credits rolled
how can there be a formal end to something which had no real beginning
I can only thank you for the Rainbows you brought to my storms, for the silver lining you stitched in my clouds
it was refreshing to find, in this sea of skepticism another fish peering at the world through a prism
so thank you for the last we had and those that might have been
I really cannot say goodbye please always be my friend
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are you afraid of love
or are you just afraid of my love?
please do not be frightened
my love will not choke or bind you in any way
it will bring you warm when you are cold
and companionship when you are lonely
my love will bring smiles to brighten all your days inter and understanding when you are sad inter I will not obligate you to come to see me everyday or to call me every night inter my love will give you all these things asking only that wherever you go and whatever you do you will hold me in your heart knowing that when you return I will be here only to make you happy
I'm not begging you to love me
I'm not really even asking you to
but isn't it alright if I cherish that hope in my heart
if I dream of just holding your hand it will hurt me not you
I will try to keep my eyes from shining when I see you and I promise I will try not to smile a special smile when you say hello
but please don't ask me not to love you for that is something I cannot do
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a kind of love that's only been written off the kind which others can only dream they pray to find our kind of love Passionate, warm, yet pure and clean
your gentle words of shining eyes are only a part of the love we share your tender voice and quiet sighs and little things to show you care
when we're together all I know is how much I love you and all that I can hope for is that you love me too
as long as God is glad for us that we should be together then we know where happiness and love will last forever
I love you as the silent phrase that sings within my heart each time I see your smiling face or kiss you as we part
I long to tell you all I feel each time your eyes meet mine but until I know our love is real my thoughts must be confined
if you truly feel is I that we should cherish one another then no one could dare deny that God has made us for each other
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