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Brittany Nugent Poem
It's hard to be without you
what can I say
my nights are lonely,
and I think about you everyday
It's hard to be without you,
and not seeing your smile
just being in your arms
made me go that extra mile
It's hard to be without you,
and I miss looking into your eyes
I never thought it would be like this,
and hearing your goodbyes
It's hard to be without you,
and not hearing your laugh
it's hard to explain,
and you don't even know the half
It's hard to be without you,
and now there's no sparkle in my eye
I just sit here and think,
and try real hard not to cry
It's hard to be without you,
and not knowing if you care
I thought you were the one
that would always be there
It's hard to be without you,
and to wake up everyday
knowing that you are not beside me,
and knowing I hate feeling this way
It's hard to be without you,
and not being able to kiss your lips
at bedtime, in the morning, or during the day
my mind is turning flips
It's hard to be without you,
and knowing you're with her
I just wanted to make you happy,
and now everything is a blur
It's hard to be without you,
and not holding your hand,
or cuddling together on the couch
watching a movie on demand
It's hard to be without you,
and just thinking about it everyday
hoping one day you'll come back,
and all I can do is hope and pray
It's hard to be without you
I really hope that this you can see
how hard it really is
that you are not here with me
Copyright © Brittany Nugent | Year Posted 2007
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Brittany Nugent Poem
My childhood was good
but it could've been better
I went through a lot,
and even wrote CPS a letter
My childhood didn't really last
at age thirteen I was put in foster care,
so I grew up fast
My childhood was great
until one bad day
when CPS came,
and took us all away
My childhood became nothing but pain,
and six years later I'm still waiting
to see my younger siblings again
Everything was fine,
and they should have left us alone,
but instead we were all separated,
and all living in a different home
You learn new things
when you have to grow up fast
especially when you realize
your childhood doesn't last
I hate CPS,
and what they have done
By age fifteen, I was as mature as a twenty year old,
but I still wanted to be that little girl, and I couldn't,
so I was told
If I could go back and make things different I would
just so I could replace time, and things lost, or do things I couldn't,
or wasn't able to do in my childhood
Now I'm twenty,
and everyday I look back,
and it hurts inside
that CPS had to come and attack
Things would be so different
I know they would
if my childhood would've went on
like it should
Instead it was ruined,
and taken from me
I hate you CPS with a deep passion,
because memories of my childhood will never let me be,
I know all your lies,
and you all never told the truth
All for the money,
but God will take care of it all real soon
Ya'll took something from me CPS
that I can never have back,
and that is my childhood
I will cut no slack.
My childhood was great until CPS came along
moving me from place to place
where I didn't belong
So CPS, what do you have to say
I lost my childhood,
because yall wanted some pay
God will get you one at a time
the things you all did
was just crime after crime
I don't have to say my name
you all know it very well.
Remember I was the "little girl"
who gave hell,
and since you took my childhood from me,
I have grown to be a very smart young lady,
and you all will see
My mom and I are ready
we're not scared at all,
and when the truth comes out
you CPS will be the first to fall.
Thanks for taking my childhood,
and I hope you all are proud,
and soon higher authorities will be reading my poem
very clear, and very loud
Everyone will know the truth,
and it will all come to an end,
and I pray everyday that CPS won't be able to take away
another childhood again!
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Brittany Nugent Poem
You light up my life,
and you make me smile
sometimes I may get annoyed,
but I love you there's no denial.
You're cute as can be
you can always make me laugh
I don't ever like to be mean to you,
and you really don't know the half
You make my heart melt
when you say, " I love you bbs"
being my little brother
is what you're meant to be
You're so loving, and so young,
but you already care
I'm proud to be your big sis,
and for you I'll always be there
I may yell at you at times,
or tell you to go away,
but just so you know
I love you everyday
I love having a little brother,
and especially since it's you,
and you make me smile
even when I'm blue
I remember when you were three,
and we were just hanging out listening to a song
over, and over, and you learned all the words,
and hearing you sing made me as happy as can be
You're growing up so fast,
and you're not a baby anymore,
but you're my little brother,
and I know that's for sure
I'll always love you,
and be right here by your side
even when you are older,
and in someone you need to confide
I just wanted to say
I love you Robert Ray forever,
and always continue to love you
even after my dying days.
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Brittany Nugent Poem
My older sister is a great person
inside and out,
and just like sisters do
we argue, fuss, and shout
My older sister always stuck up for me,
but sometimes I think that
we're not as close as we use to be
My older sister showed, and taught me some things,
and she loved me just as much as
a rich woman loves diamond rings
My older sister, and I went through some hell
as far as going to Tennessee then getting caught,
and the same day going to jail
My older sister would hold me when I cried
wiping my tears away,
and I knew to her I could run and hide
My older sister is beautiful, and has a voice of an angel
she can really sing,
and she gives me goose bumps
anytime she sang anything
My older sister I look up to,
because she's on the right path,
and she has me beat
by well over half
My older sister was my best friend,
but I feel like I lost her,
and she now has two kids, and a husband
My older sister I still adore,
and don't shut me out,
because I still need you more, and more
My older sister no one can take her place
it just makes me so happy
every time I get to see your face
My older sister has a family of her own,
but I'm still here too, and just to see her
a million miles I would've flown
My older sister is not very much older than me,
and we were more like best friends than sisters
well we use to be
My older sister I hope she doesn't hate me,
because I run away from my problems, and make bad choices,
but I hope she knows that I am still me
My older sister should know
I love her with all of my heart,
and sometimes I wish we were still kids,
so we rarely had to be apart
My older sister I want you to know
that I miss you and me,
and how close we were,
and the way things use to be
My older sister who I love so much,
and these feelings I am trying to show
hoping that you love me back, and we're still us
please let me know
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Brittany Nugent Poem
You've always been there
through my ups and downs,
and no matter what choices I made
you were always around
You're the greatest,
and I don't think I tell you enough,
but I've come to learn
that growing up is really tough
It's hard out here on my own,
and I never wanted to admit it before,
because I thought I was grown
I'm sorry for any hurt
I've caused you in the past,
but you're my mom,
and my love for you will always last
I may not have kids,
or little ones of my own,
but I know you went through a lot
trying to give us a home
I grew up fast,
and I wish I could go back
somewhere along the line
I must have stepped off track
I know where I am you've been here,
and you've done it all before,
but this life is hard,
and sometimes I don't want it anymore
Then I just think positive,
and I know I have you,
and no matter what I choose,
you'll always let me run back home to you
I hate days like this,
and everything just builds up inside
I just want to run to my mom,
and be held and cry
I just wanted to say thanks mom
for everything you do,
and I know your love for me
will always be true,
and I also know you'll love me no matter what I do
Having you as my mom
is a blessing from God
mom and daughter
we just belong
I'm sorry for anything I've done,
or any hurtful words I've said
if it wasn't for you
sometimes I think I would've been dead
Like every living being I make bad choices
every now and then,
but you always get me back on track,
and make me whole again
That is why I call you on the phone every single day,
because no matter what it is I'm going through
you always show me the way
You are very loved and appreciated
for every little thing you do,
and to you my mom these words in this poem
are very true,
and I'll end this with thank you,
and mom I will always love you.
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Brittany Nugent Poem
A good friend is really hard to find,
and I've had so many just leave me behind
A good friend is someone you can trust, and talk to
one who can make you smile
no matter if you're down, and feeling blue
A good friend is someone you can act crazy around,
and even if they think your insane
they won't say anything, or even make a sound
A good friend will hold you
when you are going through hell,
and they'll accept your collect calls
if you are ever thrown in jail
A good friend never turns their back
no matter if the situation is bad,
and when you show up on their doorstep
they're always so glad
A good friend will tell you the truth
about the decisions and choices you make
they never beat around the bush,
or try to be fake
A good friend will call you just to say hi,
and they'll listen to your problems
if you even start to cry
A good friend will always be there
others come and go,
and I've found a good friend in you,
and you make my feelings really show
You're a good friend,
and my best friend that I have in my life
if I didn't have you
things just wouldn't be right.
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You're like a mother to me
I just wanted you to know,
and everytime I'm around you,
it just makes my heart glow
You're like a mother to me
it's just the little things you do,
and those little things show me
that your love is true
You're like a mother to me
I can talk to you about anything,
and you always speak the truth,
and are also straight up about everything
You're like a mother to me
I've never gotten this close before,
but I know I can trust you,
and on me you'll never shut the door
You're like a mother to me
right up there next to my mom,
and I just love the way
you make me feel like I belong
You're like a mother to me,
and I don't want this bond to end
your friendship and love
will help my heart mend
You're like a mother to me,
and I'm so glad I found you,
and no matter what happens
I know I can turn to you
You're like a mother to me
I just thought I'd let you know
you have helped me a lot,
and these are my feelings starting to show
You're like a mother to me,
and you are the best
I just wanted to tell you,
and get this off of my chest
You're like a mother to me,
and I'm so happy you are in my life
please don't ever go away,
because like my mom you are a big part in my life.
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I never knew things could get so bad,
and now looking back I wish I had
I sleep a lot, or stare off into space
sometimes I don't know about this place
I just wish things were different with everything
it would be wonderful just to hear the phone ring
I am lonely but what can I do
all I do is sit and think about you
Things will get better it just has to
I just got to think positive, and not be so blue
I wish I could've had more time to show you how I feel,
because you went your own way, and I don't want this to be real
I was hoping you'd realize what your doing to your life
cutting through my heart like a razor sharp knife
I just want you to be ok, and no matter what happens I will be here
just to be your friend, help you through things, I don't care
Things will get better for you, and for me
just please be careful you still hold the key
Things will get better I just know they will
just got to be strong, and learn how to deal
Things will get better, and I hate that this is happening,
but you got to learn some way.......
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Brittany Nugent Poem
The first year of the relationship was great,
and I had no doubts at all
I thought it was fate
Then it started with a slap across the face,
and I can't even remember why
that memory I've tried to erase
Of course he apologized later,
but I was so confused
I guess he forgot about the slap,
and that it was his hand he had used
I forgave him,
but it was hard to do
I didn't want to go through the same things
my mom went through
Then things were good,
and we didn't argue for a while
I thought it wouldn't happen again
as he made me smile
Instead it got worse,
and he was on drugs real bad,
but this time he made me bleed,
The next morning I had a black eye, a broken nose,
and a busted lip
I just stared into the mirror crying
while he stared at me not saying zip
I went to work with extra make up on that day,
but everyone knew they saw the marks,
and as I lied they just walked away
Days, and weeks would pass,
and things were fine,
but something would happen
to push everything out of line
Then that's when the choking began
he popped a blood vessel in my eye,
and my lips turned blue
I really thought I was going to die
Then he would just let go
after he saw my color change
I don't really know how to explain it
,it was strange
then he would apologize, and cry
thinking he was sincere
I had never seen a man cry,
and again I was wrong,
just too blind to see
nothing ever changed,
and he was still abusing me
It just kept getting worse I had
bald spots, bruises, and getting thrown into walls,
but still I ignored all of that,
and refused to see his flaws
I called the cops several times,
and charges I did file
thinking he would be different,
but I was in denial
I went back to him
over, and over again
I even went as far as
marrying this man
This last time he was sentenced to over a year,
and at first I was waiting, but I had time to think,
and figure out where to go from here
The love I felt for him has now gone away
I can finally move on,
and look for a brighter day
I wish I would've left sooner,
but my feet wouldn't move
my heart said stay,
and my head was confused
It's hard to just leave behind three years,
but I've learned from this, and I don't ever want that kind of pain,
or all of those tears
I learned the hard way,
but I'm finally free,
and someday I'll find someone
who doesn't put their hands on me
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