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Dennis Baze Poem
New poem I wrote
"Anxiety I Blame You"
I blame you anxiety
For trying to break me
For making me see
The very worst in me
I blame you for these tears
For all these years
Not being able to overcome
I blame you for the pain
These thoughts on my brain
Unable to sustain
My strength
I blame you for it all
Blame you for putting up this wall
It's all your fault
I blame you for breaking my spirit
For choosing the wrong path
Now I'm feeling the wrath
The worst part of it all
So anxiety here is what I have to say
You will not destroy me
You will not have your way
Copyright © Dennis Baze | Year Posted 2015
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Your words took the breath out of me
Made me realize
Gave me anxiety
Brought me back to reality
That I need to make changes
I feel like a stranger in strange places
I realize my misjudgement
How I treated you with words unfairly
Now I see things more clearly
I'm a poet
Some say a rapper with a pen
All I know
Is I won't make that mistake again
Sometimes I feel backwards
Like Kris Kross in the early nineties
So many things remind me
If who I was at one time
Chaotic mess
Chaotic mind
Now I'm searching for peace of mind
But every moment I find
I'm one step closer to greatness
Without this pen I feel naked
Stripped of everything I am
Maybe others can understand
What it's like to be different
I'm different and that's okay
Cause everyday
I'm changing constantly
When I look in the mirror I see
A driven mind
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Jesus paid it all
Hung on that Cross he took the fall
We fell short of the glory
We failed to believe
That he was the true King
Jesus son of God
Made miracles happen
Turned water in to wine
Said things that are still on our mind
Jesus cast out an unclean spirit
On front of many
Yet still many of us refuse to hear it
Jesus healed a leper
Gave a blind man sight
Today we are still battling amongst one another
I refuse to go down in the night
I'll stand up and spread God's light
Jesus raised a son from the dead
If you open up the Bible
It's clear
The words of Jesus are in red
Jesus curred demon possessed men
Because of the Cross we are forgiven
Jesus raised Lazarus from the dead
He bled
He fed so many
These are just a few of many miracles Jesus has done
So many people doubt his existence
I know Jesus is the only one
To the Father
So I praise you King of Glory
This isn't about my story
Jesus this is about you
It's about the truth
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Been told by others the following:
You are weak
You will fail
You will not achieve
The funny thing
For a moment I actually believed
I had to find out on my own
Just how strong I am
I drew out my plans
Stood tall as a man
Soon I would understand
When I didn't think it was okay to be on medication
Now I realize it's perfectly normal
It took all the pain and frustration
To come to the realization
That I need medicine to function
I tried many different kinds
Some made me sick
Others had bad side effects
I felt like time bomb ready to tick
I didn't like what I see
I didn't like me
I hit rock bottom
I hit reality
That I can change
I started journaling
Started to write poetry and music again
Reflected back on where I've been
Realized its all about
"Taking it one day at a time"
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I have this fire breathing inside me
I'm ready to make changes
So others will see
That anxiety
Will not defeat me
Up at night
I can hardly sleep
Anxiety cuts deep
Too many thoughts racing
Constantly misplacing
My thoughts
I'm hungry to make a difference
Hungry to change
Start to rearrange
My life
With this pen I can make a difference
Let others know
We have different ways to show
Different ways we grow
I refuse to be lifeless
Hidden in the shade
Don't want to be told how to act
How to react
Don't want to be given an "F" grade
Mixed emotions make me think
No person is better than the next
We just have a different way of thinking
A different complex
So next time
When your wondering what's on my mind
Take a minute to see
This is anxiety
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Anxiety makes me question everything I do
Makes me question how I treat others
Most of all how I treat you
Makes me feel weak
Makes me feel sick inside
With no place to hide
Holding on to my pride
Anxiety is one sick twisted monster
Tearing at my inside
Rib cage breaking
Pain shooting all over
Wait..
It's all in my head
Questioning everything I just said
Anxiety makes it hard to explain
Why I have these thoughts running through my brain
Unable to sustain any clear thoughts
Trying to survive without medication
Trying to make it through the day without any frustration
This is me everyday
Ashamed that I feel so weak
That I've let it come this far
I need help
I admit this
Most of all I just want to exist
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I was born to do this
To pick up this pen
To do amazing things
To never quit
To be legit
To make a difference
It's amazing what a pen can do
How it makes me feel like I can pull through
Like I can accomplish anything
I've let this anxiety hold me back
I know it's kept me off track
Like I was stuck behind a huge wall of black
Satan controlled me like a puppet on a string
Made me believe everything
Whispered in my ear
"No one wants you around"
Kept pushing me down
I believed him
I was about to be another statistic
God would not give up on me
He wanted me to see
The power of salvation
When you look in the mirror
When you see tears pouring down your face
You realize you've been broken
That you're in a better place
You're finally home
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They say I'm weak
They don't voice it
I can see it in their eyes
They're thinking I'm a freak
They can't see that I'm strong
That their views are twisted
That they've been wrong all along
My mind may see different views
Some days I'm up
Other days
I have the blues
They don't know what it's like
To walk in these shoes
With every breath I take
I hold it in
Just to see their reaction
I do this for me
Not for their satisfaction
I will be real
You will never see fake
This falls on me
With every decision I make
Every mistake
Is on me
That's the difference between you and me
You're too just to blind to see
The reality
This life
This day
Tomorrow
I will still be searching
To find my way
I see you on the other side of this looking glass
Peeking through
The difference between me and you
I will always be real
Copyright © Dennis Baze | Year Posted 2016
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Past aggression
Turned into an obsession
Turned into a love
For Jesus
Sometimes I think
That life is unreasonable
Then I think I about Jesus
Hanging up on that Cross
Start to realize I was the one who's lost
Now matter how many times I try
No matter how many times I say goodbye
To the old me
Jesus set me free
That's pure love
That's poetry
So when I see down
Filled with anxiety
I remember this
I can't stop the Devil from trying
Can't stop him from lying
Trying to deceive
Make me believe
That I am weak
See I won't let Satan win
Won't let him make me feel broken
Cause Jesus love is stronger than him
Some days I can't snap out of this
Feeling this anxiety
Like I hardly exist
I look for that special verse
To lift me up when I feel hurt
Pain will not defeat me
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I look in her eyes
Every morning
Every night
Brings a new surprise
In love with my best friend
If I could start over again
I would do things differently
Cherish her more
Make sure she knows she is the only one for me
The best day of my life
When we said I do
When she became my wife
She has seen the worst in me
Felt my anxiety
Seen me break down
Turn my back to Jesus
Seen me come back
Cause I can't survive with out God
Days when it feels like my health is failing
She comforts me
Means the world to me
Cause this anxiety
Is breaking me apart
I decided now is the time to change
Yesterday is already past
Here in the moment before it goes by too fast
I want the good memories to last
So every chance I get
I will tell her I love her
Tell here what she means to me
I want her to know I love her
I want her to see
That anxiety will not defeat me
Copyright © Dennis Baze | Year Posted 2015
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