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Troy Lamb Poem
Unconscious but not at rest
The heartbeat slowing in my chest
Caught inside this living dream
Unable to wake, unable to scream
Every day I wander this maze
My thoughts shrouded in smoky haze
When will I no longer see your face
How long till I forget our fall from grace
The memory of you still haunts these halls
Your image engraved in every wall
I rest my eyes but I cannot flea
The illusion of what you use to be
A phantom of the woman I held tight
A gleaming spirit dressed in white
This ghost dwells within my mind
Something that I cannot leave behind
Every day it holds me down
Any longer and I will surely drown
Because the dreams I had have long since passed
Thrown into the abyss dim and vast
This vision of you is not real
It doesn’t live, it doesn’t feel
The hallucination goes on and on
But I’ve been asleep for far too long
I am shouting to the sky tonight
I’m sick of the story that you write
Please, let me out of this empty void
So that I may rebuild what you destroyed
Because isolation has grown so old
I’m ready to come in out of the cold
To feel the warmth of hope flow over my soul
And begin to reclaim all that you stole
Out the door you thought you were free
When all along it was really me
The chains on my heart fall away
As I blaze the trail of this new day
I’m breaking out of this delusion
Never to live in your seclusion
No longer bound to our crippled past
These nights of sorrow are gone at last
In the face of struggle I come alive
For a better life I will always strive
Now I am washing away these toxic stains
Fueled by the inferno in my veins
This heart on fire is tried and true
It won’t give out no matter what you do
The nightmare you formed is falling apart
And into the light I now depart
But the darkness I left is coming for you
So that you may feel its torment too
Maybe not today but there is no doubt
That you can’t escape the impending drought
Because we all must reap what we sow
And a field of woe is what you grow
Planting the seeds of your dismay
Unaware of how far you’ve strayed
I tried to save you from this plight
I said take my hand, it will be alright
But you looked away and sealed your fate
And I am forced to wipe this slate
I’ll light it up and burn it down
And the ash will rain without a sound
As you rot up on that barren throne
I carve the path that will be my own
I do not know how or when
But someday I will love again
There’s a girl out there who will be mine
So keep on leaving, I’m just fine
Copyright © Troy Lamb | Year Posted 2015
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Troy Lamb Poem
For so long I thought I knew your heart
Your mind, soul, and every part
My life felt safe in your gentle arms
Free from worry and any harm
So certain I was that you were the one
A love so strong it could not come undone
But little did I know my trust was misplaced
And soon a brewing storm would have to be faced
That day I found the deceiver in my midst
The girl I held, the one I kissed
So suddenly my life turned upside down
Now lost in the shadows with you nowhere around
Into a grave you lowered our love
Never to see the world above
At that moment something triggered inside
My rage now flowed like the surging tide
The levies cracked and my strength gave way
Unable to stop the coming fray
Bliss now replaced by hate and loathing
Caused by you, the wolf in sheep’s clothing
Snarling fangs beneath that darling smile
Gorgeous looks to conceal your side so vile
A person that few people ever see
A beast kept under lock and key
With cruel intent you sharpened the blade
And in my back the knife has stayed
A dagger forged from scorn and spite
Cold dark steel void of light
Plunged into my skin now frail and gray
Then like a coward you ran away
Off to your fantasy world you quickly fled
While I was left hanging by a thread
But the life you live is purely fiction
A book of lies written to avoid this friction
Thoughts stained black by petty need
Your life now owned by selfish greed
A slave to yourself you slowly slip
Over your back you crack the whip
But the high you chase will surely crash
In withdrawal you will writhe and thrash
So desperate you are to feel no pain
That you devastate lives with nothing to gain
But you told me to go and so I did
Far away and off the grid
When your world crumbles then it’s none of my concern
Like a wildfire I will sit and watch it burn
I won’t crawl on my knees one more day
Not another second hiding what I have to say
With these cold dead hands I clinch my fist
You’re no longer the razor at my wrist
I deserve so much more than what you gave
A brighter future lies outside this cave
And when you wake to a lonely dawn
You my dear will feel that I am truly gone
I’m not your savior, no not anymore
I won’t catch you like I did before
Go on alone and see what waits
Beyond the safety of your gates
A bitter city with little grace
For those who fall from the relentless pace
But for me this tale of tragedy will soon be done
And you will be left under this burning desert sun
Copyright © Troy Lamb | Year Posted 2015
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