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Lauri Lunzinkski Poem
When I heard the news of her demise the walls came and slammed me down.
For months the only thing that was able to be felt was the blood that was to bleed.
Hate consumed me and all that was done was sprinkling tears on the ground.
From all my unreleased hatred and sorrow a bitter grass grew.
Even though the tears soaked the soil,
The despised flowering feelings so prickly and crude really grew.
All alone was a long stretch of travel.
Never looking at others in my path.
Waiting to slit every persons throat with shrapnel.
Why did you have to leave me?
My friend, if only you had the courage to stay...
Why did you end yourself?
I need to know because my poisoned tears wont stay at bay.
When he came to town it was another random joyous face.
For a time I was invisible too, until he noticed the cuts on my wrists never to recede.
It was like for a while he just wanted to get in my personal place.
The attention made every essence of my being make hatred grow.
It was like he couldn't just leave me stay depressed as can be,
Almost as if the more I HATED him, the more our bond grew.
Compassion was something his soul seethed.
For a time it seemed my heart might start to de-thaw,
It seemed for feelings, I no longer had to bleed.
My friend, if only you had the courage to stay,
Why did you end yourself?
I need to know so I can keep my wondering thoughts at bay.
When did my enemy get at my soul,
For him being here from a different town,
He seems to be transfixed on repairing my soul.
It was like he saw me as a flower beginning too bloom,
Almost all the time I was a shrew to show that I cant improve.
I proved that my toxicity is equivalent to a mushroom.
My friend, if only you had the courage to stay,
Why did you end yourself?
I need to know so I can understand why this boy makes me improve every day.
When the thought struck me that nobody ever was really here after you died,
I felt a new sensation of peace and serenity.
My demon boy was an angel of you in my head, so I saved myself and brought pride.
I am a new tree sprouting out blossoms,
Compassion is something I will seethe.
When I see you in heaven I will show God someone as lost as me can be awesome.
My friend I understand you didn't have the courage to stay,
And I know you wanted out.
Now I know your angelic aura will have a huge role in my life day to day,
As much as I miss and love you, I'm glad you didn't have to be alone on the way out.
I love and miss you, but when I needed you most you came through.
-LL
Copyright © Lauri Lunzinkski | Year Posted 2015
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Lauri Lunzinkski Poem
At night we do drown in depression and darkness because we have no heart,
At our darkest hours we see no reason to keep going on, to posses a living art.
At times of sickness we feel of wretched souls seeing no opening for hope or light,
At lonely hours we wish someone would end our despairing plight.
In the dawn we pray for a little warmth of the heart,
In a sunrise we wish to see love strangle depression; a poised dreadful dart.
In the shining light we hope we see something other than our own splintering form,
In any light all we see is that we are ragged and torn.
Are you the kind of people we despise?
Are you one of those ignorant people only worrying about your own demise?
Are you the fretfully perfect and loved and young?
Are you a rebel of which Christ was hung?
You ask us why we are so rude,
You never seem to realize your stabbing words do come out crude.
You blame us burn-outs gays and emo's for the worst, though we are inferior,
You are the real scum you havoc evoked government controlling superiors.
I am a soul unafraid to show you that I too can speak,
I am a person who stands out to help others who are meek.
I am the girl who will walk through a wall of flame,
I am here to show you inspiration can become from a living thing untame.
At our most unbearable times we seek out some sort of consolation; we desire help,
In time we see through others stories to recognize who the are from their scars.
Are you here to be unjust and harm us further, to pass on your nasty beliefs?
You have to leave here if so, because I want us meeting to be less than brief,
I am just here to say that we are unique and depressed so let us simply be.
Copyright © Lauri Lunzinkski | Year Posted 2015
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Lauri Lunzinkski Poem
It happened when my sister was first born,
A sensational feeling came to heart.
The sense of protection as a fresh storm,
Her essence giving love from the start.
A bond was formed that day that won't let out,
She will be loved forever without doubt.
The swish of her hair gives me such a pride,
Even as she grows into a young bride,
She'll always be a baby in my eyes.
I love her this is the undying truth,
And this piercing protection is my proof.
Copyright © Lauri Lunzinkski | Year Posted 2015
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Lauri Lunzinkski Poem
My heart sits in the exact spot in which you left, stuck on the same beat.
Waiting for me to take another breath.
At first all I felt was pain, and tears, hoping to resume our lost love: without defeat.
But you haven't come back, so in the place it waits.
Collecting dust, there it will stay until fate steals the life of it away.
Not that you left it with emotion anyway, even the power of love can't shine through.
Like my withering mind must wait until that beautiful day,
The day you sweep the tears out of my burning eyes.
The moment you help me stitch up my bleeding wrists,
The evening you become wise.
The night you pick up my heart and blow it off with bliss.
I've tried to do it myself but I just can't.
There's no way I feel unless it's blood leaking off my chest,
Because there's a whole where my heart goes, to seal any zest.
So I want you to know I'm still waiting, although possibly in vain,
Just know I'm hoping you'll clean my dusty heart, to finally end the pain.
Copyright © Lauri Lunzinkski | Year Posted 2015
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Lauri Lunzinkski Poem
I'll be your sugar, in any treat,
But first you must be my sunshine, because sugarcane needs heat.
You'll be my comforting scent wavering in the air,
But first I need to help you become powerful enough to get there.
I'll be your wall in which you lean,
But first you cant be mean.
We'll make a pair, just us two
Because there isn't an us with just me and just you.
Copyright © Lauri Lunzinkski | Year Posted 2015
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