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Ntombezinhle Ntenga Poem
To you i may be nothing, to you i am not be beautiful
enough, you may look at me and the disgusted by
what i wear, how i walk or how much i weigh,
but believe me when i say, i love being me
I may not have what you have, but trust me when
i say you don’t have what i have
thinking trying to find a reason why you would think i
want what you have, when i have what you don’t.
You may have lot of people wishing to be you,
but believe me, i am not on your list,
I love me, you may look down on me, and what i stand for
or for what i believe in but i still love me
fame and fortune is all good, when you have earned it,
i choose to have my own, i refuse to be a shadow, I
will rise and i will conqueror, i will be me, my
own person, what you can only wish you can be, your own
self.
I love me, you may choose not to like me,
that is your choice, you may choose to humiliate me,
that is your choice, but remember, i am me, that can not
be changed
Call me names, ridicule me, but i will still be me,
if looking down on me makes you happy
then you should enjoy it.
But at the end look in the mirror and check if you are
happy, see if you love yourself.
For now i will love me for me and for you, since
that is not on you agenda.
self-love is the best love.
Copyright © Ntombezinhle Ntenga | Year Posted 2015
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Ntombezinhle Ntenga Poem
I always knew the day will come, but never did i imagine it would
feel this way, neither did i think i will hurt as much,
i still wish you would come back, I still wish i could see you,
i pray to God that you are at peace that you are happy and
rejoicing with the Angels in heaven, i know one day we will meet,
in heaven. i just wish i can think of you and smile, remembering
the time i had with you
Even though i had wished, prayed and prayed for more time
with you, i am grateful for the time we had together, the
memories we made, I still cannot believe that you are gone,
I wish the pain will stop, then guilt get the best of me
I wish i could come visit you, if only heaven had an open day
Then i laugh when i think of all the fights we had, cursing each other,
because even though we fought but you were mine to fight with,
i long to see your face, hear your voice and tell you stories,
you were the only person who knew me, who understood me
who never judged me, i was at my best whenever i was with you
you were the light of my life, my star, my brother and my blood.
You laid so peaceful, you seem at peace, i cried maybe for me more than
you, i had to now use the past tense whenever i had to refer to you,
Lord how i wished he would have stayed just for another second, or a
minute, just so i could say GOODBYE.
Goodbye is indeed the saddest word, i wish you could at least tell me that you
you are okay, that you are happy or that you miss me as much as i miss
you, i always knew the day would come and yet never realized it
will be now, I Hope and pray the memories we shared provide me with
strength to keep going and staying alive if not for me but for you
I know you are looking down on me, i know you are smiling
you are now with your creator, I will never forget you.
Copyright © Ntombezinhle Ntenga | Year Posted 2015
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Ntombezinhle Ntenga Poem
I knew the day will come , yet never realised this soon
watching you so pale but yet so peaceful
I knew it in my mind but my heart can never accept it
letting you go, watching your pretty smile fade in your face
knowing I will never see you again, nor touch you
was the most heart wrecking moment
knowing you has been a blessing, a miracle from the man above
even though I never held you in my arms
your memories will for ever leave
I knew you were one of the Angels just did not realise you will be leaving for heaven soon
how I wish you opened your eyes, how it wish you smiled
I imagine how it would have been, to swatch you grow
I know I will have loved you
sitting here I wonder if you blame me, if you blame me
for not fighting hard enough, for letting you go,
if I could trade places I will take your place.
if I held on, if I kept fighting, maybe you will still be with me.
how I ever let go of what could have been
what I could have taught you
I wonder how your laugh would have sounded like
if you were to be daddy’s girl or mommies girl
not a single day goes by that I don’t think about you
I now you are amongst the Angels, you are seating on the bosom of the Jesus Christ
he is taking care of you, even though I miss you, I get comfort in knowing that you are watching over me.
Dedicated to all mothers who have lost their Angels.
God will never live nor forsake you.
Copyright © Ntombezinhle Ntenga | Year Posted 2013
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