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Cassidy Metcalf Poem
A long list of names with not a friend among them
Is it just of book of hidden faces
Forgotten faces?
Not a single word I've ever said was
written with truth
And here's the proof
When there's tears streaming down my face
Stuck in place
Is a smile that is a lie
When every time I look around
I want to die
No friendly faces, in the brightest of places
And I can't make a sound
Is this life or is it just a dark hell
How is one to live without living
Feeling lonely
Lost in a sea of sound
The darkness inside me
Is seeping through my heart
and making me lose my self control
Turn the shower up higher so they don't hear me cry
It's all I can do, just living a lie
The friends I thought I had
left when I was reaching my lowest
Now as I sink below the surface
The sun is the dimmest of lights
Scratching at my sides
Not ready to go back to the blade
So long gone, I've reached the breaking point
but I'm afraid to let go
Copyright © Jane Smith | Year Posted 2014
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Cassidy Metcalf Poem
The days pass slow
The nights even slower
The hours spent thinking of my mistake
Has kept me awake
I can't have you now
I lost that chance
It slipped out of my hand
Like water on a web
Gone at the first light
The pain still lingers
I can't help but wonder
What I did that went wrong
We all hide our pain in the masqurade
pretend that everything's alright
But we cry at home, feeling alone
The pain stops us and we all know...
This won't be our home
We never felt more alone
the darkness will consume
as it will hide the truth
we all want to know that there's somewhere to go
Copyright © Jane Smith | Year Posted 2013
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Cassidy Metcalf Poem
There’s a weight on my chest that won’t go away
A stinging in my eyes, but it’s not the rain
Scars on my arm that take forever to fade away
Drowning out the world because participation leads to pain
Hearing the whispers when you’re alone
“Nobody cares about you… Just kill yourself already”
The darkness creeps up ever so slowly
The weight just gets more heavy
Wanting to find ways to numb the pain
and make the world go away for a day
Nobody notices when you start to cry
You become invisible, but its not that you’re shy
Why open up when the world wants you to die?
You’re too much of a burden to ask for help
Even if you had a rope to your throat and
try to see if you can fly
Dipping your pillows into the ocean
The only comfort you have is that other people wouldn’t be bothered by your death
You become two different people
The one you were whispers for help, with tears in your eyes
While the one you became shouts “I’m fine” and smiles, refusing to let the other you
reach out for help, before you decide to take your life
The one you became smothers you, refusing to talk to anyone
You fall deeper into yourself
Until you fade away completely
Copyright © Jane Smith | Year Posted 2014
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Cassidy Metcalf Poem
Fear
Breathing down the necks of men
Holding them captive in the cage of monotony
Never freeing
Until one learns to release the chains that bind them
Fear
Trapping those without courage
Safe Jobs
Safe Lives
Never taking a risk
Until one flees the safety of the known and learns to truly live
Fear
Paralysing
Crippling
Controlling your every action
Walk the line without a fear of falling
Copyright © Jane Smith | Year Posted 2016
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Cassidy Metcalf Poem
I’m just so Tired
Of Causing Pain to
Those that matter and
When I try to Help
I only Hurt them
I’m so Tired
Of Being Lost, my
Eyes burn, the water
Is My sea of Pain
I’m Tired
Of Doing
Nothing Right
Tired
Of No
Worth
Copyright © Jane Smith | Year Posted 2014
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Cassidy Metcalf Poem
What's beneath the surface of us all?
What is it that makes us who we are?
We feel love, we feel hate
We feel joy, and we feel pain
Each of us is unique
But it seems so hard to see
what's beneath the surface
... Underneath it all
We take our pain
to makeus strong
We take our hate
to right the wrong
It may not take long
Or it may take your life
to figure out what's beneath the surface
Beneath the surface is a child
Who's hopes and dreams can run wild
Where the impossible does not exist
But as we age
With the dawn of a new day
A piece of that child is lost
Forever alone and eternally forgotton
And with all this, I can only desire
That we can reach inside
And find that hidden child
Beneath the surface
Life is but a race
Slow and steady
like the turtles' pace
Understan it is a gift
To live as you do
For there are others who
Know more than they wish to
But beneath the surface
There's so much to be found
What's beneath the surface
I cannot say
I could ponder it
Each and every day
I know, and you know
Though there is much to know
There is so much more that we don't know
For beneath the surface
Is a complex system
With so many things
I can hardly list them
Beneath it all
No matter what you say
There is a little hope
And it helps to get through every day
There is a little child
filled with wonder
To find what's beneath the surface
You need not but to look inside
And find the answers are buried within you
There's light... and darkness too
But that is who you are are
to deny it, would be untrue
So, what's beneath the surface
May be hard to see
but if you look deep inside
maybe.... just maybe, you will see all you can be
Copyright © Jane Smith | Year Posted 2013
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Cassidy Metcalf Poem
Taking the blade to your skin
To drown out their words
Feeling like the pain is all you can control
How did it start?
Their taunting words whispered in your ear
But for a second, just stop
Wipe those tears from your eyes
Don't worry about what those hypocrites say
'Cause you're better than that
I know it's hard
But darling, please stop
I know it hurts
but put away your blade
Just let your scars fade
'Cause you're stronger than that
I know that you can stop
I swear, it will all get better in time
Can you trust what I say?
I know you won't forget these days
the low points in your life
It's gonna take some time
For you to realize
Trust me
I know your pain
Trust me
it's hard to stop
But just trust me
i'll be there for you
So, throw away your blade
You know it won't go away
Don't let them get to you
oh, I'm so proud of you
You're winning the battle
And you're already halfway there
But this is only the beginning
Don't add any more scars to your precious skin
I can't stand to see your scars
The signs of your pain
The sight of your blood
flowing from your vein
Like tears from your worst days
I know it's hard
'Cause I was just like you
I know it hurts
but you're gonna make it through
Copyright © Jane Smith | Year Posted 2013
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Cassidy Metcalf Poem
You are a noose
Not letting me breathe
Like a soundproof room
The thoughts locked inside my head
You are a mask of joy
Hiding my fear behind your crooked smile
Like the coming winter, you creep in slowly
And fill me with a deep-seated chill
Frozen in the cold
I wait for Spring to thaw my bones
Copyright © Jane Smith | Year Posted 2016
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Cassidy Metcalf Poem
Why do you feel the need to run?
To change who you really are
I can see who you really are
The pain you try to hide
The hate you feel
for yourself
and all the you cried
You wish you were different
But you can't seem to stop
Being what others want
You end up hating yourself
And let the darkness comsume
You're through with the self-pity
And won't ever open up
a bandaid will not work
To fix your broken heart
And It seems like
You gave up from the start
Copyright © Jane Smith | Year Posted 2013
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Cassidy Metcalf Poem
Among the most natural of things you could see
The Practice of Wicca is something magickal to behold
Something far greater in wonder than you or me
Its a sight to see, or so I've been told
This ancient craft is as old as our kind
Yet the New Ones Sought to Kill the ones they said would sin
They bear no grudge, they heed you no mind
Forgiveness is the way of the Pagan,
The world is to be worshiped
But not admired from afar
Unlike the bud of a rose a gardener has nipped
The Beauty of the world, they seek to not mar
Copyright © Jane Smith | Year Posted 2014
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