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Micaela Fernandez Poem
Beautiful little girl
Devastatingly beautiful
The birds would start chirping when she walked past
Her mother’s daughter they all said
A mirror image
And suddenly she was shocked by love
5 years old being undressed like a doll
Caressed and bathed so lovingly
Such gentle touches
That no one suspected
Mother found a new piece to her heart
Wedding bells chimed
And a new father was born
5 years old she was…just 5
This beautiful little girl found love in her “new” father’s arms
He held her close, sometimes too close
But no one suspected
She didn’t know this love was pain wearing a mask
She learned that love was…
Shielded from the eyes of her mother
Night visits to her room from her father
Year after year
For 15 years this was the love she knew
She felt invaded, alone and abused
She told her mother
About her new father…the man her mother loved
She didn’t acknowledge, wouldn’t bring herself to see
What the water so clearly replayed in her view
The mother knew, just knew
That her husband would, couldn’t ever
Never…bring pain to his daughter, never
Little girl, what does it feel like to be loved?
It feels warm, and wrong but gentle
Strong hands unclothing you
Caressing your body as if you are a grown woman
With a glorified body to worshipped and pillaged over
Little girl, what does pain feel like?
Closed doors…darkness…my father…naked
Hopeless
Beautiful little girl
Devastatingly beautiful
Pain paraded as love
Molestation masked for discipline
When your daughter cries out
When she cowers in corners
And doesn’t trust the dark
When she says love is just another word
Just another synonym to let him abuse her
Trust what she has to say…
I was that beautiful little girl and now I am a woman plagued with fears
Some nightmares you cannot outrun
And some memories only God can wipe away
The blood of all my pain is on my mother’s hands
"I forgive you"
Beautiful they say…
It’s a mask for something more
Copyright © Micaela Fernandez | Year Posted 2011
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Micaela Fernandez Poem
Lightning strikes through the night
Like a burning flame; ignited
Scorching your blood to a boil
And you can’t breathe or speak
Move…or even fathom all these feelings
Your body is crying out in silent pleas
And your skin…your skin feels cool to the touch
But you are ablaze
And you are drenched
In not only the sweat from you pores
That pours out from your skin, consistently
But also the juices that drip down your thighs
Like honey, just waiting for my hungry tongue
You want to be eaten alive
You need to release all that energy
Until you are spent with no ability to form even syllables
“Let me quench your desire” I say into your opened mouth
Your knees buckle just from my kiss
And you sob out in dismay, you want more
You refuse to accept that simple offering
I allow my face to hover over yours’
You push your lips onto mine and kiss down my neck
Until you reach the line of my collar bone
And you still your actions, mesmerized
Then lick along that sweet spot on my skin
Until my mind starts to hum and focuses just on you
My mouth goes dry and I almost feel lost until my hands touch you
And the fire begins to build and its agony for you
Again I kiss your lips and then I travel lower and lower
From your neck, to your breast bone; only to stop and linger at your belly
I breathe into your navel speaking to you in a hushed tone
“Let me light you afire” and you reach for me
I nibble on your hips and watch you watch me
And the lightning strikes inside of your very being
I dive into you licking the source of that honey
And you can’t breathe or speak
Move…or even fathom all these feelings
Your body is crying out in silent pleas
The night absorbs our time and in the morning I am but mist
And your lips remember my words drifting in the room
“Let me quench your desire”
“Let me light you afire”
Lightning strikes through the night
Like a burning flame; ignited
Copyright © Micaela Fernandez | Year Posted 2011
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