Best Poems Written by Amanda Gardner

The Secret Behind a Woman's Pain

You believe your better than me?
Just because of the bruises you see?
So why don't you just hit me again, hit me

Your afraid because I now know who I am
Your deranged your the one who can't understand
Your nothing to me your a silly boy not a man

I will no longer sit in misery and hear your cries
I will no longer listen to your stupid and pitiful lies
As you fall to your knees and say your sorry,
For the blue and black bruses you had put on me,

And after another night of pain I dry my tears
For I can hear the voice of an angel near
I can mouth out the words there almost clear
For  the angel says : "I am with you do not fear"

And then the voice fades and dissapears
I then think to myself what have I been doing here
How I have lived like this for many years

As I see him rest on the bed
With his arms wide open and spread
Vodka in one hang and the bible in the other
I tuck him in on both sides of the covers

I take one look at him and then at the door
A voice says: "Go you just can't take anymore"
But I say what if it gets better what if he can change
But what if it doesn't what if he just stays the same

If I step out what will be there for me
I then think about our past and all of our history
I can't take it he's gone insane
He's not the man I married on our wedding day

And as I walk out with my suitcase in one hand
I look at the trailer park and can't understandd
Reaching for the hope seeing the sun rise up
All I think now is what else the Lord will fill in my cup

Copyright © Amanda Gardner | Year Posted 2011