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To Life that Rude mistress
she comes to me
then leaves a mess
To Love Oh that cruel Mistress
She knocked on my door
and shattered my heart
To these two I gave my best
I gave my all
but all they gave me
were a couple shards
Now I sit here by this old oak tree
both names in a pierced heart next to me
the world around silent and still
Waiting for this next wave
oh that wave of destruction
that follows love and life
To those two I gave my best
I gave my all
But all they gave me
Was a pile of dust
Where did I go wrong?
Letting those two into my life?
Or was it the girls they embodied?
Nevertheless I sit here
Alone
Tired
Torn
Tell me what I must do now
Tell me where to go after this
Hurricane.
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why would you lead me on
only to tell me you hate me
why did you take what I gave you
only to return it to shreds
why did you come back
why were you so nice
all things that bounce in my head
You have changed
I have lost you
theres no turning back
I will always be here
I can always help you
I will always be nice
even when my heart is broken
even when my every thought is to be mean
I can bring myself to do that
I cant bring myself to hurt you
Why would you listen to me
just to turn around and run
Why would you come back
And leave me breathless
why did you come back
why were you so nice
all things that bounce in my head
You came
You broke
You left
But I will always be here
I can always help
I will always be nice
But my only true question is
Why did you come back
just to leave again?
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Im so sorry my heart screams for You!!!
Im so sorry I Would do anything for the one i loved
Your so sorry you ever met me
You probably wish you never came back
But Kassie its just to hard to
Bind my hearts very will
I wouldnt blame you if u ran and ran
further away from me every day
I never tried to pressure, this is true
But at this moment my heart feels like it will spill
You probably arnt even listening to this plea
and you may never see it my way
but this is not why I loved you
again I say that im sorry that I misbehaved
now I feel as worthless as a tin can
and Kassie Just dont look back!
Im Sorry
Kassie
Im So Sorry
Should you choose to
Not be my friend
Just remember
This
Dont
Look
Back
I Hope
That it Wont
Have to come to that
Because I just want to be your friend too
Im Sorry Kassie
Im so Sorry
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I am tired
I am weak
I fail at everything
I am weird
I am a freak
No one likes me
No one cares
The one word to describe me is FAILURE
I dont care about these labels
I dont care about anything
the only thing I care about is you
the only person who gets me
but even you dont understand
even you have labeled me
you might even relish the pain you inflict on me
I am fine with pain
I am fine with names
but being utterly lonely
being utterly scared
these are the things I cant stand
I want to talk
but my lips are sealed
and whenever I do say anything
I feel exposed
being shot down
with a single word
stings my soul
its hard to bind what you cant control
its hard to break that which cant be broken
the way I live now
is sleep through life
hoping praying
that someone will listen
someone will care
someone wont label me
someone will see the person
that I was meant to be
what is needed most
is a friend
someone who knows the pain
someone who feels the same need
someone who feels when I need comforting
someone who wont leave
someone who helps
even when I tell them to go away
they stay
even when I say that I hate them
even when I curse them
even when the very thought of being near me repulses them
they still stay near
they still make themselves be heard
they show me that they care
they show me that they want to help
they show me that I am being stupid
even when Im quiet they can see somethings wrong
even when I am talking about something
and not show anyone that I am hurt
they know
and they help
if only such a person existed
if only one person cared
I could live on
knowing that in a world out to get me
I still have someone on my side
all I want is a friend
pure and simple
a friend just like me
with their flaws and strengths
but I also have my flaws and strengths
people see my flaws more easy than strengths
I just want someone who can see my strengths easier than flaws
I may be tired
I may be weak
and I may fail at everything
I might be weird
I might be a freak
no one may like me
no one may care
but if you do
if you can bear to be near me
then show yourself
from the midst of the crowd
come to me with open arms
show me the light that you bear
in this cold world
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Kassie im sorry to have given you the wrong message
I didnt mean to
I didnt know
so Kassie please stay
The choice is yours completely
Not mine
Just yours
I would like you to stay
stay my friend
dont leave me so lonely
Again its your choice
And I would hope you stay
Your choice
Not Mine
Not anyone's
But yours, yours alone
So choose and leave it be
if you leave
never look back
but I hope you stay
if you stay
no regrets
I will control myself
I hope you stay
So Kassie
Choose
I will respect your choice
even if you dont stay
Choose and be happy
Even if you choice makes other people unhappy
I realize that theres not much making you stay
But Kassie I promise I will control myself
I just want you to stay
Stay forever my friend
The Choice is Yours
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Today I lost
the best friend I ever had
yesterday I lost
the best moment of my life
last week I lost
Everything that mattered
today I gained
knowledge to span a lifetime
yesterday I gained
the worst moment of my life
last week I gained
Everything Else!
I am lost in this world
I am lost to everything around me
I am lost to everyone who looks to me for help
I am lost to friends who see me for who I am
I find myself without
I find myself with memories
I find myself looking to the future
I find myself searching for help
no one around to give me a hand
no shoulder to cry on
no one to give me advice
except these voices I hear
except these friends surrounding me
except these people I never saw
except these people that the spotlight is on now
Give me your hand
give me aid
please help me here
teach me what I should do
teach me where I should go
teach me how I should feel
I know nothing of this sort of thing
I know nothing except what I lost today
I LOST A FRIEND
OH SO DEAR TO ME TODAY
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When this is all over
we will laugh at what we did
when this is all over
we would wish we were still friends
But when this is all over
I never want us to forget the times we slid
And when this is all over
I hope we can make amends
For what we did
how both of us got hurt
For what we still do now
give each other dirty looks
on days like this
Mine eyes avert
On days like those
I wish we, our differences forsook
So when this is all over
my goal is to still be friends
and when this is all over
we can laugh at each other!
and at how we acted in high school
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Exhausted
Tired
Battered
Beaten
I feel so worn
So numb to everything,
and Everyone
I scream for help
I scream for reprieve
No answer comes except my words echoed
So here I am sitting
Stuck in this rut
Unable to see the world around me
The sky above is dark
Not a single star to lend me her light
But its times like this that I think about you
You probably don’t know
You probably don’t care
You probably don’t even look at me
So here I am sitting
Next to a lonely tree
Watching the storm rage around me
I get whipped by debris
Dirt in my eyes, stinging burning.
My mouth, Full of ash
My fears like a poison
Overwhelming my mind
Paralyzing me
Fatigued
Drained
Tattered
Trampled
I sit here contemplating
The world around me black as night
I see a brilliant light
The light moves away from me fast
Faster than anything ever seen
Why does it do that? why does it leave?
I never tried to do anything!
I say im sorry
She doesnt say anything.
The field around me
Empty and bare
I scream out as loud as I can
I AM SORRY
Still nothing…
except the echos that bombard me seconds later
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