Someone

I am tired I am weak I fail at everything I am weird I am a freak No one likes me No one cares The one word to describe me is FAILURE I dont care about these labels I dont care about anything the only thing I care about is you the only person who gets me but even you dont understand even you have labeled me you might even relish the pain you inflict on me I am fine with pain I am fine with names but being utterly lonely being utterly scared these are the things I cant stand I want to talk but my lips are sealed and whenever I do say anything I feel exposed being shot down with a single word stings my soul its hard to bind what you cant control its hard to break that which cant be broken the way I live now is sleep through life hoping praying that someone will listen someone will care someone wont label me someone will see the person that I was meant to be what is needed most is a friend someone who knows the pain someone who feels the same need someone who feels when I need comforting someone who wont leave someone who helps even when I tell them to go away they stay even when I say that I hate them even when I curse them even when the very thought of being near me repulses them they still stay near they still make themselves be heard they show me that they care they show me that they want to help they show me that I am being stupid even when Im quiet they can see somethings wrong even when I am talking about something and not show anyone that I am hurt they know and they help if only such a person existed if only one person cared I could live on knowing that in a world out to get me I still have someone on my side all I want is a friend pure and simple a friend just like me with their flaws and strengths but I also have my flaws and strengths people see my flaws more easy than strengths I just want someone who can see my strengths easier than flaws I may be tired I may be weak and I may fail at everything I might be weird I might be a freak no one may like me no one may care but if you do if you can bear to be near me then show yourself from the midst of the crowd come to me with open arms show me the light that you bear in this cold world