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Lila Head Poem
Wouldn't it be so beautiful to begin each day
Where our first breaths are each other?
The sun through the blinds warming our skin
The sweet air of you filling my lungs
Relishing in being interwoven together
Just five more minutes, five more times
Couldn't we run away hand in hand
And let our feet carry us wherever they may?
Couldn't we be any place on earth
In any climate, in any country
And the most spectacular sight would still be the way we look at each other?
Couldn't our love move mountains and part seas
And sprout new life and emanate its own rays of warmth?
What need do we have for money and material
When we are swimming in a wealth of pure, unadulterated bliss
Simply to be in our own company?
I know I haven't met you
But I can already see your eyes
How they trap me and transport me to a timeless place
I can already feel how they level me
Both quickening and slowing my heartbeat in the same moment
I know I haven't met you
But I can already taste your lips on mine
Even in the early morning they are the sweetest honey to ever dance across my tongue
All of my nerves and neurons firing at top speeds
No matter how many times you kiss me
I know I haven't met you
But I can already feel your skin
Soft and warm under my fingertips
I can already feel my palms sliding over every curve and contour of you
Fulfilling the lifelong urge to touch the art in museums
Because I have a masterpiece right here with me
I know I haven't met you
But I can already hear your laugh
More infectious than any contagion
Lighting up all spaces surrounding you
Shooting 5,000 cc’s of dopamine directly into my veins
The rush reminding me how blessed I am
To have met a soul like you
So please my love, I beg you
Hurry to me
I know our paths are laid out
Written in the stones that line our walkways
But if you could walk quickly
If you could stretch towards me as I stretch towards you
If you could jump into my arms as we meet and wrap yourself around me
I could promise to live all of my days in devotion to you
I could promise to follow you anywhere if you'll let me
Let me learn how to love you
Let me cherish you in every way you've dreamed of
Let me cook your favorite meals and rub your shoulders after long days
Let me wash your back and lace your shoes
Let me carry you when you're weak and cheer for you at every milestone
Let us build a home together
To live out our life worth living
Let us start each day
Breathing each other in
The sun through the blinds warming our skin
Copyright © Lila Head | Year Posted 2025
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Street lamps tint our room with dim light
The muffled TV hums
Your skin on mine throughout the night
A comfort second to none
Soft and warm under the covers
Your fingers trace my own
Peace is here with one another
By your side, I am home
Our breaths combine
I’m yours, you’re mine
Our veins, our thoughts, our cells entwined
I love you, my dear, down to my bones
Copyright © Lila Head | Year Posted 2025
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My eyes flutter open and my senses sneak back in
With a long groan, I roll towards the window
Suddenly the warm sun rays lather my bare skin
It dawns on me how blessed I am
The simple privilege of waking up and feeling comfort
In these moments, God is real
Copyright © Lila Head | Year Posted 2024
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Lila Head Poem
My heart is pounding in my chest
So hard I think my ribs might break
My stomach turns over and over
And my palms are so damn sweaty
I worry your mom might be blinded by the rays of sun reflecting off of them
If I didn’t know any better
I’d think my body had a pin ball machine inside it
The music starts
Is this really happening?
Am I dreaming a good dream?
Have I died and this is heaven?
Am I more nervous or more excited?
How did I get so lucky?
The time between the first note of the piano
And the doors opening
Feels like an eternity
I haven’t seen you all day
And I want nothing more than to see how beautiful I know you look
You step out and into the open door
This framed vision of you
Is better than any painting I have seen in my life
I feel my breath hitch
Seeing you standing there in all your glory
The way the white dress cascades over your curves
The way it contrasts with your skin
The way Venus herself would turn green with envy at the sheer image of you
And then you look at me
My God, you look at me
Your eyes meet mine and the world melts away from my periphery
How do you do that?
You hold my face in your hands and see me
All of me
Without ever making contact and 100ft away
How is it that we’ve loved each other all this time
And I still have butterflies seeing you now
As if we’re about to meet all over again?
Your dad comes into frame beside you
He offers you his arm and you take it
It reminds me of how it’s not just you who has shown me true love and kindness
Your father loved me for me when mine didn’t love me at all
I was welcomed into your home and truly accepted and nurtured
It wasn’t fake
It wasn’t a front to disguise disgust
They knew I loved you and you loved me and it wasn’t a repulsive sin
It was sacred
This reality
And the beauty of it
Start to sink in
As you take your first step together
And my eyes well with tears
Part of me starts to feel embarrassed for crying
Quickly I remember how I have been blessed
How proud I am to be yours
How I want to brag about you to everyone I meet
How I would declare my love for you from any rooftop and write it in the stars for the world to see
How I would embrace the corniness of flying messages overhead with a blimp or spelled out in airplane trails to show how I love you
How I would tattoo your name on the bottom of my foot like we were in Toy Story
Wearing any symbol of belonging to you like a first place ribbon
As you walk down the aisle
As I’m still stunned by the radiance and beauty you possess in every square inch of you
As tears continue to roll down my cheeks and I beg God to not wake me if this is a dream
I try my hardest to remind myself how to breathe
Inhale
Exhale
I try to not focus on the deafening sound of the blood pumping in my ears
Inhale
Exhale
I try to remember how I got here
That this moment was crafted into creation
Years in the making
That our love is on purpose
When you reach me
And I get to look at you
Really, truly look at you
All of my nerves and worries and fears are set on the back burner
I look into your eyes and you look back at me
Giving me that sweet, slight smile that brings me to my knees
You slip your hand into mine and interlace our fingers
And I’m transported to the first time I got the privilege of something so simple
As holding your hand
Sitting on my couch while the raindrops pelted the windows and the back of the AC
Pretending to pay attention to the TV while internally doing backflips
Feeling the way you traced your thumb over mine
Feeling so at home there next to you
That was the beginning of our story
This is the beginning of the next chapter
And I thank God our plots have joined together
So that I may live out the rest of my days alongside you, my love
Copyright © Lila Head | Year Posted 2024
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Lila Head Poem
There is so much about our universe I don’t know
So much I don’t know if I’m even capable of knowing
One could even debate that the amount of knowledge I lack
Is infinite
Feeling something weighing
On my consciousness
I read about stars
How they begin
And how they end
Did you know that the bigger the star, the shorter it’s life?
Somehow that made sense to me
When a large star forms
It burns big and bright
It uses its resources more quickly
And runs out just as fast
Then it explodes
Pieces of it are flung into the surrounding space
If a star is big enough
When it dies
It creates a black hole
Apparently
When a black hole is swallowing the things around it
Not even light can avoid falling in
Apparently
A black hole is far heavier
Than the star that created it
Even though this cycle takes place so, so incredibly far away from me
It feels so close and so familiar
And what it really reminds me of
Is the stars I’ve known
Who shined so bright
So bright that they didnt shine for long
I’ve known many stars in my life
Beautiful to know
Heartbreaking to lose
Always a privilege to witness
Seeing just how far their light reaches
Shining their rays on everyone
And everything
That crosses their path
And when they go
The ripples of tragedy can be felt far and wide
Shrapnel striking anyone close by
After the shockwave
The space they once occupied
Becomes a chasm
Sucking in the light of those around them
The gravity of this chasm
Forces you to the ground
And tries to coax you into falling in voluntarily
But there is beauty in these phenomena
For when black holes reach the end of their life
They too, explode
And the matter of everything they consumed
Is scattered
Creating an environment for a new star to form
The matter that composes these stars is recycled into infinity
And their makeup is never truly lost
We witness their light time and time again
The love we pour into them
Is eventually poured back into us
One day, my time here will come to an end
My life force will have been used
And I will have to leave those I love
Just as those I have loved had left before
But knowing that they will never be without me
That I am here amongst the ether
Shining down on them at all times
This fact comforts me
Copyright © Lila Head | Year Posted 2024
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The value of a hand to hold
When the skies are dark and the air is cold
When the wind whips shelters with pushes and pulls
Is worth far more than my weight in gold
You stood 4 feet and fearless the day we met
A fierce firecracker with a gentle, caring touch You've been my loyal warrior for each day since
My built-in best friend with unconditional love
You cheered me up and kept me calm
While that same old storm outside raged on
And when the lightning stopped and clouds were gone
You were still my hero—standing tall, tough, and strong
You wrapped me in warmth and picked me up when I fell
You showed me the light that lives in my eyes
You unveiled gifts I didn't know that I held
Until I saw them in you personified
Even when I stood with arms crossed and scoffed
You steered me from the destruction I sought
Even when we bickered, hurled insults, and fought You held onto me tight till the nightmares stopped
Even though you yourself were a child
A true dichotomy of grit and compassion
You turned my moments of dread to soft smiles
Brightening my days in an effortless fashion
Even when the distance grew
It never changed and I always knew
Miles meant nothing for me and you
It's just one more nothing to make it through
But my sister is only human
And she needs love too
So when that old storm starts brewing
Here lies my promise to you:
I will always hold your hand, under bright skies and dark
I will always think of you anytime we're apart
I'll stand guard at your side should any trouble start
And I will always love you—with all of my heart
Copyright © Lila Head | Year Posted 2025
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I draw a yellow circle on the pavement
I wear the chalk down to my fingernails filling it in
I smudge the bright dust to make it solid
To make it cover any remaining flecks of black road
I wipe my hands as I stand
I take an anticipatory breath through my grin
I step into the middle
My eyes close and my chin points towards the sky
My spotlight at last, on me
And me alone
Oh?
Why does the air still feel cold?
Why don’t I feel the warmth of gaze?
Opening my eyes
My imagination falls out of the sky
There is no gaze
There are no eyes
Only an expanse of empty road
With dirt creeping in on the sides
Oh.
No spotlight, only sunlight
Suddenly I don’t want to be seen
I don’t want the warmth, I don’t want the gaze
I don’t want me and me alone
I start a new chalk and I draw a new shape
I draw an empty corner
Where the yellow doesn’t reach
I sit in my corner with my knees to my chest
I fit perfectly
Without the me
And just alone
Copyright © Lila Head | Year Posted 2025
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