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Best Poems Written by Autumn Hawkins

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You

I’ve apologized 100 times and I can’t get you out of my mind/ you always sit in the back of my head/ it bothers me so much I wish I was dead/ but that’s not the end/your the dream I am the nightmare/ and I know it’s not fair that we breath the same air/ mine should be filled with the amount of pollution in thoughts/ I can’t breath./ I’m drowning in the sea of my own lies./ But I am perfect in everyone’s eyes/ cause I constantly hold up this disguise/ like a shield protecting me from the grave I have dug myself.//

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I’m leaving now

I'm sorry
 I'm mental 
I'm sorry
 I'm gone 
I'm sorry I'm stupid 
I'm sorry I'm scared when the lights turn off 
I'm scared to be alone due to the lack of attention and- lack of life
I'm sorry for all the dumb things I do especially when all I want is to mean something to you 
I'm sorry I've been through years of sexual physical and emotional abuse 
I'm sorry I'm ed
Ik I am
Im sorry I really am 
I'm sorry I can't be the girl that you want 
I'm sorry I'm mentally lost 
I'm sorry I'm so alone that even though Someone's using me I Still want there validation 
I wish I was there for you
 I wish I wasn't gone 
I wish I was the lee that you need me to be 
I wish I knew who Lee was at all
Just don't leave your all I have 
I know I ed up 
I ed up real bad 
I'm sorry for all the rhyming 
it's what I do when I get scared 
especially when I might lose the only person who ever really cared

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counting down the days

Look god 
I know there’s a way people usually pray to you 
But I don’t work that way 
So I’m gonna just say what I have to say 
I want to love you 
But you cant 
I struggle 
And I know there’s not excuses 
For the thing I’ve been doing 
And I’m not gonna stop 
But I’m still saying sorry 
But I guess it’s a worthless apology 
It’s hard to love you when your shoved in my face 
It’s a hard thing to take 
When your mother doesn’t love you 
Only enough to show you 
God 
But she doesn’t actually care 
She just what’s me to pray 
And praise for the rest of my days 

You ever heard of out staying your welcome
You’ve been here for so long 
I’m counting the hours 
The hours till I’m out of this house 
I’ve been ready to leave for years now 
Looks pretty and yellow on the outside 
But really it’s filled with yelling and crying 
 wishing I was dying
 lying 
I’ve been ready to leave for years now 
Me neither 
I don’t see much of her these days 
I feel bad because now that she’s older 
She’s gotta this bolder over her shoulder 
Of these kids she’s got to raise 
Counting down the days 
Hoping that when she leaves 
These little sweet kids don’t get treated this way 
I hope they have words 
Words that they can say At least Not my age anyways Breathing in all these religious fumes 
I’m suffocating 
No way of alleviating 
I have words 
I’m just not allowed to say 
But I will one day 
I’ll let all my words out  

I had to grow old at a young age 
I think it’s always been this way 
I don’t remember having fun with anyone 
Remember that little sweet Girl you raised?

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Lovely boy

I love you like a broken leg 
I don’t know how to discribe you 
You live in a void inside my head 
Don’t tell me our love is fake 
Don’t tell me I tricked you into taking the bait 
I need to leave to go away 
But everyday I wonder why,why can’t I stay 
I love you too the moon in back
I guess I’ll always love you in a certain way
I wonder I wonder we wonder all around 
Will the one true love ever be found 
But when I look into your eyes part of me stops wondering

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Feelings

My heart is cold and dead/but believe me when you are near it glows a bright ruby red//when you are near my face is warm too the touch/I don’t think I’ve ever loved someone this much//I want to take the next step/but I fear you don’t want to yet//your voice is like a violin playing beautifully in my ear/this is the only sound I ever want to hear//I sit and think about you a lot/I don’t think I will ever stop//I wonder how you’ve been/i wonder when/when you’ll get here/when you’ll leave/and I wonder when your face will hit the pillow and fall fast asleep/

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I hope you know I really do

I love you and your perfect and i love the way you think to be honest your the reason im still permanently awake i love every single word that you say,when im with you i hope the day will never end,but then i wake up and i do it all again,there’s a lot i need too say and i dont know if i can fit all in/in just one day/but if there’s one thing that you need to hear its what im about to say, i love you today and all day tomorrow, and i never want to see you sorrow,
Speak loud and clear with a heart made of steal,baby let me help you heal,can we come to an agreement a sort of deal,let me be close too you let me be honest, because every day im with you i want to last the longest,never let you see me cry cause i only want you too see me as the strongest i only want you near but i really need you here so let me make what im about to say crystal clear i love you and your mine.//end the search cause I’ve already found the love of mine//every night with out you always ends up cold and alone with no one to hold but when your in my sheets my sheets are made of gold.

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Gone,guilt,fault

There is a million ways to say S+A
but none of that matters if you don’t stay

engraved on to that tree,my arm,my life

forever you will stay in my memory

 there’s no getting rid of the chilling feeing that comes when you walk in a room

the stomach knots tying me into a bind of unclear feelings


The sun is in no comparison to you 

Heart beating faster I don’t know what to do I’m talking like my lips are covered in glue no words escapeing just my air cause your breath takeing 

They say I’m cold and bitter they ask how you put up with her 

Tic toc I watch the clock past 1 2 3 how long could this torture possibly