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Gilda Craigan Poem
With Me ( a poem about grief)
This morning my brother lit the sky on fire for me to let me know he's ok.
Today he flew in as an eagle to see me from upon a tree. He made a peal call, high and loud to let me know he is watching over me.
Tonight my brother made the light bulb in the moon shine brighter, brighter than before, to let me know he loves me and that I am not alone.
I see his smile in the sunsets, in the mountain peaks and in the ocean waves.
I feel my brother in the wind, in the warmth of the sun and out in nature when it surrounds me like a big, warm hug.
I miss my Brother more than one could know but I know that he is with me, all around me and he is woven into my heart forever so I can take him wherever I go.
Gilda Craigan
Feb 17/24
Copyright © Gilda Craigan | Year Posted 2024
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Gilda Craigan Poem
Fog
I feel like I am walking through a veil of thick fog or mist.
I do not know where I am going and I am completely lost.
This is uncharted territory for me and I feel all alone.
It wasn't supposed to be like this, you were always supposed to be here,
Now I walked into the unknown without you and I am so scared,
You were taken too soon and so abruptly, leaving me shook to the core.
You have always walked by my side through the good and the bad,
You always made sure I felt safe and protected,
Little did I know you have always been my guardian angel in life and now in death,
I will miss you for forever and I will never be the same,
I will hesitantly walk forward half of who I was, but I know that you will be with me in some form or way to help guide me along the way.
Copyright © Gilda Craigan | Year Posted 2024
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Gilda Craigan Poem
Brother,
I relive the night we lost you, it feels so foreign and far away, but then I realize all of this is real and you're no longer here, then my heart breaks all over again.
My heart that is already shattered but now is turning to dust. It never has a chance to heal or even form a scab. It will forever be an open wound and have a terrible ache. I don't think this feeling will ever go away because you're no longer here.
This isn't fair, you were supposed to be here for my entire life. To walk beside me and grow old in age, watching our families grow together and pass down all we have learned.
It has always been you and I since the beginning of our time. Now I wander into the dark all alone, without you there by my side. I will never be ready for this journey. It will forever feel wrong to me, like there is nobody at the wheel.
I know I need to learn how to live without you but I just can't and totally refuse. You will forever be my brother and I will never let you go. You will be here always in my heart and it's ache will always remind me that you should be here but was snatched away and torn from my soul, leaving me hollow and forever broken without a map to know where to go.
Your Sister,
Gilda
Copyright © Gilda Craigan | Year Posted 2024
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Gilda Craigan Poem
Climbing time
Tredging forward and climbing time. Hoping to find an end to this darkness that has befallen me. So far it is endless and feels like it may slowly smother me.
This darkness carries sadness and this sadness is thick and heavy like tar. It feels insurmountable and inescapable.
I need to catch my breath, I need to feel normal again but you are no longer here and therefore it is impossible.
So I must forever learn to live in darkness and sadness....even if I don't want to.
Copyright © Gilda Craigan | Year Posted 2024
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Gilda Craigan Poem
Obliterated
This is not a word I use often but when I think of how grief and loss feels this word is as close as I can describe it.
Obliterated: destroyed utterly
This is how losing you feels. This is how my soul feels without you here.
There's no way back from this. I will never be whole again. There will always be cracks, fractures and holes marking this time, marking this loss.
Obliterated is absolute and that is how I know things will never be the same again.
Copyright © Gilda Craigan | Year Posted 2024
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