Best Poems Written by River Ryans

One by One

One by one
Everyone leaves 
They see who I am
And they lose belief 
My world crashes down
And I can’t stay alive
But I have to because
I need them to survive
I’m the one hurting
I’m the one lost
You see the outside
I see the frost
It slowly takes over
Inside of my head
Fogging my mind to
Forget what’s been said
I’m only a person
I can’t do it all
Why does it feel
Like I’m hitting a wall
I am boxed in 
And there is no way out
Can’t make a noise
And I can’t even shout
Even if I could 
What would it be about?
How much I hurt?
No, I can’t let that out
Hiding inside
From the pain and the hurt
Wishing for flowers
But there is just dirt
Nothing comes out of me
Nothing at all
Hate and anxiety
Curled in a ball
Why am I like this
And why can’t I stop?
Everyone’s waiting 
For this ball to drop
I’ll just explode 
And there won’t be no pain
I’ll just stop existing
There won’t be no rain
No one will miss me
No one will care
Where I once was
There will just be air
Finally they’re rid of me
Nothing to fear
No one to hurt them 
Or those they hold dear
No more pain coming
From inside or out
No more to worry
And no more to doubt 
I will be gone
No more reason to moan
No more of anything
No more place to call home
All of its over
You’re finally free
Of the despicable person
They used to call me

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